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  1. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Would you have preferred that I actually went through with it and killed myself? Seriously. I was taken back by the grain of salt image and post. Nothing less and nothing more. I also explained my emotional status and the fact that I have issues with social interactions and people in general...
  2. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Tracheotomy below my neck. https://ibb.co/5sTTNqs This was done on my first OD.
  3. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    So this means it has to be taken with a grain of salt. I'm essentially talking to the walls then. Job done right then mybb. You win.
  4. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    I'm just asking a question in terms of comparison to shrooms as Ancalagon mentioned.
  5. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Listening to music mostly. Watching a movie every now and again. I watch a lot of international news. If this is going in the exercise direction, I'll be honest there's been no progress so far. I also do web design and this keeps me occupied over weekends only.
  6. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    I'm taking it one day at a time right now. I'm stuffed in all directions of my life, from finances to seeking alternative employment. I don't have finances to relocate or pay for things I need. I understand what I should do. I also know what I'm able to do.
  7. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    What about weed? Does that fall into the psychedelic range?
  8. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    @Ancalagon You asked if there's something that might be causing my depression and issues and something also just entered my mind. I think I have major abandonment issues. Someone in high authority said something yesterday that made me feel unwanted and that I have no place in the sphere of my...
  9. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Thanks for the responses. Had a rough night trying to sleep because my nervous system is shot. I've got cramps and pain from stress and spent most of the day sleeping so far. Headaches are awful as well. @Ancalagon I also had some bad things happen in my childhood, but through the years and...
  10. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    I would love option 2. It just didn't work out as expected. Anyway. I can't refute what you said. I am however not seeking attention. Just screaming for help when I feel like it's the end for me. The rest is pretty much correct. Also. Did you hear? I became someone's buddy today. Now that...
  11. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Swear at me all you like. If you can't take the time to read tbe comments it's not my issue.
  12. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    From someone like you I don't need anything thank you. Please don't let the door hit you.
  13. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    Wow. So nu-metal of you. Please go read your Rolling Stones magazine and stay out of my life. Because I really can't recall asking for your negative opinion.
  14. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    I agree that I'm doing a lot wrong. Believe me. I know it. I'm frustrated at a lot of things and can't always sort it out. This is normal. I understand. All the advice and directions I've received here so far is appreciated. I am receiving professional help. Clearly something is stil wrong and...
  15. |tera|

    Ready to OD again

    I couldn't talk about it. My mind didn't function in discussion mode. I had thoughts of giving up on life because everything was just too much. It was like a waterfall of negative emotions. I'm truthful if I say the last thing on my mind was to talk about it. I made plans to OD tonight. I had...
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