Good psychologist in Joburg area

[STS]

I would first just like to state that I don't mind criticism or talking about myself, that I am not looking for pity or attention and that nothing i share here negatively impacts on my family, friends, work or son. I am often told that I am a great guy randomly by strangers and that I'm a great father by people that see me with my son, and this is important for the next bit.

I am extremely angry a lot of the time. I know it sometimes reflects in my posts. It may also not seem that way to people that know me in real life but I am actually very paranoid and often when I hear laughter my first thought is that it is always directed at me. When people whisper it's the same.

I've also heard noises and people calling my name in the past, which I could shrug off, but now I am placed in situations where I am able to investigate and look around only to find nobody or nothing that could make the noises, and that makes me extremely angry too.

I've also grown up seeing things out of the corner of my eyes which I could blame on imagination and my creativity, but I am notice things more and they seem to stay there for longer. Again, it doesn't scare me, it makes me angry.

I've become completely apathetic to everything, the only thing I want to do when invited out is to stay at home with my son or take my son places but I've also been put into situations where my son is fine and visiting his grandparents or is at creche, and i feel physically sick going anywhere. I feel like i hate people, i can talk to them and understand them, but i don't want to be around them.

Now when I google these things, i end up on boards for schizophrenia and psychos, and all it does it make me even more angry to read about all these people talking about this so casually. i feel like sometimes sharing my feelings only to delete messages or cancel visits because i do not want to share things i've been feeling.

i think i'll be skipping straight to a psychiatrist

 

[copacetic]

You are going to see someone, that's good.

I wish you all the best, dude.

 

[STS]

You are going to see someone, that's good.

I wish you all the best, dude.

i don't want to end up taking pills for something that will never get better

 

[copacetic]

When I was having my very worst depressive episodes a couple years ago, I would hear (this is hard to explain) a kind of echoing mutter/whisper in my head. Thoughts would cascade and tumble over one another until it became sort of like a feedback of white noise in my mind.

Was really not pleasant, was certain I was going mad.

The laughter/whisper thing I can also relate to, although I've luckily grown out of that, for the most part.

The anger? Not so much, but I think all this manifests in me with anxiety, which is pretty ****ing annoying.

Your apathy I can relate to as well (a result of the depression, in my case).

 

[copacetic]

i don't want to end up taking pills for something that will never get better

Why do you think it will never get better?

 

[STS]

Why do you think it will never get better?

How does your depression work for you? Does it come back? it just seems to be getting worse for me, i don't get depressed but i feel angry a lot of the time and look for places to direct it, so i look for things that make me angry on the net or look at my hardcore porn. i've just noticed things my whole life and it just seems like i'm becoming worse the older i get.

 

[Nick333]

How does your depression work for you? Does it come back? it just seems to be getting worse for me, i don't get depressed but i feel angry a lot of the time and look for places to direct it, so i look for things that make me angry on the net or look at my hardcore porn. i've just noticed things my whole life and it just seems like i'm becoming worse the older i get.

I was in therapy group many moons ago; when I was a teenager. I, or someone else, asked the psychologist when it got better or how long it took to get better and her reply was that it didn't. We just learn to cope with it better apparently.

Even though I suffer from a degree of depression still, I honestly believe she was talking complete and utter shyte.

I'm not going to go into a long discussion on how I've been kicking depressions ass but, I should say I'm very anti-anti-depressants (as controversial as that is) and I have no faith in psycho-therapy as a cure of any sort.

What I do believe is that depression stems from fear (which is why it's so easily interchangeable with anger) and the only way to effectively deal with fear is to face them. If you're hearing voices - listen to them. Listen to the fearful, self-defeating thoughts. I don't mean agree with them. I mean don't try and drown them out. Give them your full attention.

Mindfulness is a proven practice for combating depression.

A good place to start.

 

[Ancalagon]

How does your depression work for you? Does it come back? it just seems to be getting worse for me, i don't get depressed but i feel angry a lot of the time and look for places to direct it, so i look for things that make me angry on the net or look at my hardcore porn. i've just noticed things my whole life and it just seems like i'm becoming worse the older i get.

Go see a psychiatrist/psychologist immediately - they will know far more than we here on the Internet do. You owe it to your son.

Maybe start with a psychiatrist.

I beat my depression. I was depressed for years - combination of psychotherapy and SSRI's helped me.

 

[STS]

I was in therapy group many moons ago; when I was a teenager. I, or someone else, asked the psychologist when it got better or how long it took to get better and her reply was that it didn't. We just learn to cope with it better apparently.

Even though I suffer from a degree of depression still, I honestly believe she was talking complete and utter shyte.

I'm not going to go into a long discussion on how I've been kicking depressions ass but, I should say I'm very anti-anti-depressants (as controversial as that is) and I have no faith in psycho-therapy as a cure of any sort.

What I do believe is that depression stems from fear (which is why it's so easily interchangeable with anger) and the only way to effectively deal with fear is to face them. If you're hearing voices - listen to them. Listen to the fearful, self-defeating thoughts. I don't mean agree with them. I mean don't try and drown them out. Give them your full attention.

Mindfulness is a proven practice for combating depression.

A good place to start.

Thank you

 

[STS]

Go see a psychiatrist/psychologist immediately - they will know far more than we here on the Internet do. You owe it to your son.

Maybe start with a psychiatrist.

I beat my depression. I was depressed for years - combination of psychotherapy and SSRI's helped me.

I will, pay day, i just have a feeling that this is going to kill m financially and i'd like to have avoided it. I also don't want people to know about it

 

[Nick333]

Thank you

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[copacetic]

How does your depression work for you? Does it come back? it just seems to be getting worse for me, i don't get depressed but i feel angry a lot of the time and look for places to direct it, so i look for things that make me angry on the net or look at my hardcore porn. i've just noticed things my whole life and it just seems like i'm becoming worse the older i get.

I've been depressed since puberty basically.

It does not mean I mope around 24/7 - Depression is not just feeling sad. I'm on medication for it now, which has helped a great deal. Should have done it years ago (it was something I resisted for many many years, until I got to a point where I was considering suicide [vaguely], and I felt I had nothing to lose really).

Mot important thing is just to go see someone at this stage, as pointed out already, a qualified professional is the best place to start. But, as also pointed out, there is no guarantee that the first person you see will be the right one, or offer the correct advice. Tread carefully.

 

[blunomore]

I will, pay day, i just have a feeling that this is going to kill m financially and i'd like to have avoided it. I also don't want people to know about it

Check if your medical aid covers it ?

 

[STS]

I don't like attention, pity or intentionally being pathetic, but I feel i can tell the general board due how i've been acting

So i (edit: possibly, i didn't want to confirm it)have schizophrenia, the nice gentleman that wrote me a prescription asked me when i could make an appointment to meet with him again, and i told him i'd contact him when i know i'm available. i really have no intention of going back.

he also asked if my family knew i was coming to him or how much they knew about my life. i can never tell them about this or the things that have happened in my past. i feel like everything i've ever done or tried are unforgivable and unchangeable, and like the person i am is now set in stone, and the best i can do is to just not be any worse.

this won't affect me being a parent or my work, but it will affect who i am and what i do with my life now. i'm torn between not wanting to put another human being through being around me and my horrible attitude towards life, and hating everyone i meet and not wanting to give any anyone an opportunity to hurt or confuse my son, so everything i do in life will most likely be private and kept secret forever.

so this is the loneliest i've ever felt in my life. i am sorry with how quickly i lose my temper, i'm sorry for my swings in my attitude, i'm sorry if i've ever judged any of you or made you feel uncomfortable, i'm sorry for my silly jokes. it was all me, but it was me simply being misguided

 

[Knyro]

What an ignorant comment.

Maybe but lets face it. Psychology is one of the easiest if not the easiest program to get into in university so naturally there are a lot of idiots there. Now I'm not saying all psychologists are idiotic quacks but making their degree so easy to get into doesn't do the field any favours.

 

[Pooky]

Maybe but lets face it. Psychology is one of the easiest if not the easiest program to get into in university so naturally there are a lot of idiots there. Now I'm not saying all psychologists are idiotic quacks but making their degree so easy to get into doesn't do the field any favours.

You can't practice Clinical Psychology with a BA/BSS in Psychology, you need at least a Masters.

Yes the undergraduate psych courses are easy to get into but then you have to do honours and masters before you can practice.

 

[Knyro]

You can't practice Clinical Psychology with a BA/BSS in Psychology, you need at least a Masters.

Yes the undergraduate psych courses are easy to get into but then you have to do honours and masters before you can practice.

Yes I know that but it still doesn't get rid of the perception that it's an easy field that you can BS your way trough. How hard the honours and masters degrees are I have no idea but they are still considered as easy in comparison to many other fields.

 

[Ancalagon]

I don't like attention, pity or intentionally being pathetic, but I feel i can tell the general board due how i've been acting

So i (edit: possibly, i didn't want to confirm it)have schizophrenia, the nice gentleman that wrote me a prescription asked me when i could make an appointment to meet with him again, and i told him i'd contact him when i know i'm available. i really have no intention of going back.

he also asked if my family knew i was coming to him or how much they knew about my life. i can never tell them about this or the things that have happened in my past. i feel like everything i've ever done or tried are unforgivable and unchangeable, and like the person i am is now set in stone, and the best i can do is to just not be any worse.

this won't affect me being a parent or my work, but it will affect who i am and what i do with my life now. i'm torn between not wanting to put another human being through being around me and my horrible attitude towards life, and hating everyone i meet and not wanting to give any anyone an opportunity to hurt or confuse my son, so everything i do in life will most likely be private and kept secret forever.

so this is the loneliest i've ever felt in my life. i am sorry with how quickly i lose my temper, i'm sorry for my swings in my attitude, i'm sorry if i've ever judged any of you or made you feel uncomfortable, i'm sorry for my silly jokes. it was all me, but it was me simply being misguided

I think you owe it to your son to go back.

 

[Pooky]

Yes I know that but it still doesn't get rid of the perception that it's an easy field that you can BS your way trough. How hard the honours and masters degrees are I have no idea but they are still considered as easy in comparison to many other fields.

There's a difference between perception and truth. The negative perception that the field of psychology gets is from stuff like people saying that the degrees are easy.

I don't know where you got the idea that they are 'easy'...

 

[Knyro]

There's a difference between perception and truth. The negative perception that the field of psychology gets is from stuff like people saying that the degrees are easy.

I don't know where you got the idea that they are 'easy'...

I never said they are easy, I admitted that I have no idea how hard the honours and masters degrees are. But had I do know for a fact is that the undergrad degree is easy to get into and they tend to attract the "party animal" students looking to just breeze through university. These are the same people that one day may go on to post grad psychology.

It's also not as rigorous as the "hard" sciences.

That's where the perception comes from. All these factors affect the perception of the field, accurately or not.