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Evening everyone
I'm starting this thread for a few reasons. First, to bare my soul and to try not be ashamed of who i am any more, second, to see how the general public would view it and thirdly, to see if to any of you if it's even a feasible idea. Again, i don't mind humour and criticism, but understand that I am serious and am not trying to troll.
I'll even number it for you for those of you who can't be bothered to read, and I'll use my original username so that some of you who know me know that I'm being serious.
1.) For a long time i've fantasised about making pornos. Not because I want to see women naked, not because i want to star in them, not because i feel like degrading and humiliating girls, not because i am an attention whore, not to get rich, but because throughout my childhood/teenage years porn had a huge role in shaping(
) me into who i am today, and it's actually something i know a lot about AND feel it's the only thing I'll ever be good at. it's a fulfilling kind of thing.
2.) I know it's an industry that's frowned upon, I know it's hard and probably as realistic as dressing up like a superhero and fighting crime at night, but I've seen people do it(other countries of course) and I feel that I'm not good at many things in life, but I know what people want and are like. With my knowledge of how to market it(sites, how it's done, how the process works) I think i could even make a profit off of it and for once in my life not be dirt poor. i'm not familiar with porn in SA at all.
3.) My wife and i have different goals in life, but we support each other and can discuss anything. She said that she is happy with me doing it, her only concerns are the lifestyle(drugs, shady people, weirdos, women offering me blowjobs), what people would think if they ever found out and how my son would be affected. obviously i hope and really believe i won't fall into any of these traps as i have ways of working around these too.
4.) Obviously people do it for different reasons. Some do it to see titties, some do it for the money, some do it as it's their personality, but i feel like it's so ingrained in who i've become that there isn't much else i can do that i would ever be as good at. i've been hiding this part of me for years and have felt ashamed that it's such a big part of me, never being able to get rid of it or grow away from it. this is the best way i've felt i can deal with me not accepting who i am.
5.) I plan on selling the stuff overseas as I know that is where the biggest market is, and have my own methods of doing it that i've learned, so i'm not too concerned how the SA public would receive it, as i plan on doing most of it online.
6.) The reason i originally wanted to write this is despite all this, i feel alone. It is a lonely industry. It's not something you advertise to everyone(i'm not going the spam root ), it's not something you can really ask advice on, it will probably be hard to find people willing to be models and actors in this country, i can't ask advice of filming and cameras without mentioning what it is for, and i don't know how it well be accepted by most people, besides the religious and moral.
Now, how would i ever approach people asking for help? How would i ever find the right people to ask for advice, as these are the biggest things nagging at me, that i literally have to do everything alone, the few people i do tend to meet turn out to be creeps. while i'm sure that most users are for pornography and view it, i wonder how people would react being asked if they'd like to be in a porno, where the best place to look would be and how not to come across as a dick after a stupid idea?
or is this just a stupid idea/dream?
Evening everyone
I'm starting this thread for a few reasons. First, to bare my soul and to try not be ashamed of who i am any more, second, to see how the general public would view it and thirdly, to see if to any of you if it's even a feasible idea. Again, i don't mind humour and criticism, but understand that I am serious and am not trying to troll.
I'll even number it for you for those of you who can't be bothered to read, and I'll use my original username so that some of you who know me know that I'm being serious.
1.) For a long time i've fantasised about making pornos. Not because I want to see women naked, not because i want to star in them, not because i feel like degrading and humiliating girls, not because i am an attention whore, not to get rich, but because throughout my childhood/teenage years porn had a huge role in shaping(
) me into who i am today, and it's actually something i know a lot about AND feel it's the only thing I'll ever be good at. it's a fulfilling kind of thing.2.) I know it's an industry that's frowned upon, I know it's hard and probably as realistic as dressing up like a superhero and fighting crime at night, but I've seen people do it(other countries of course) and I feel that I'm not good at many things in life, but I know what people want and are like. With my knowledge of how to market it(sites, how it's done, how the process works) I think i could even make a profit off of it and for once in my life not be dirt poor. i'm not familiar with porn in SA at all.
3.) My wife and i have different goals in life, but we support each other and can discuss anything. She said that she is happy with me doing it, her only concerns are the lifestyle(drugs, shady people, weirdos, women offering me blowjobs), what people would think if they ever found out and how my son would be affected. obviously i hope and really believe i won't fall into any of these traps as i have ways of working around these too.
4.) Obviously people do it for different reasons. Some do it to see titties, some do it for the money, some do it as it's their personality, but i feel like it's so ingrained in who i've become that there isn't much else i can do that i would ever be as good at. i've been hiding this part of me for years and have felt ashamed that it's such a big part of me, never being able to get rid of it or grow away from it. this is the best way i've felt i can deal with me not accepting who i am.
5.) I plan on selling the stuff overseas as I know that is where the biggest market is, and have my own methods of doing it that i've learned, so i'm not too concerned how the SA public would receive it, as i plan on doing most of it online.
6.) The reason i originally wanted to write this is despite all this, i feel alone. It is a lonely industry. It's not something you advertise to everyone(i'm not going the spam root
), it's not something you can really ask advice on, it will probably be hard to find people willing to be models and actors in this country, i can't ask advice of filming and cameras without mentioning what it is for, and i don't know how it well be accepted by most people, besides the religious and moral. Now, how would i ever approach people asking for help? How would i ever find the right people to ask for advice, as these are the biggest things nagging at me, that i literally have to do everything alone, the few people i do tend to meet turn out to be creeps. while i'm sure that most users are for pornography and view it, i wonder how people would react being asked if they'd like to be in a porno, where the best place to look would be and how not to come across as a dick after a stupid idea?
or is this just a stupid idea/dream?
