Why I'm posting this : I'm venting and I know I will probably be chastised for this but I had to say it somewhere. It's been eating me up so hear goes..
Why am I taking some of the blame : I initiated the whole thing, she wanted to go home but No..I wanted to get off I suppose, be intimate with her in a physical sense.
Friday
I slipt up, during mutual masturbation ("grinding") with my girlfriend, I came(totally took me by surprise)..and we were both semi-clothed. We kinda started freaking out and she said "Lets just have sex, I'm going take the morning after-pill tomorrow" and I agreed(stupid!!! epically so.) I really didn't want that to be the first time we had sex with each other (atmosphere and the location..a lot of things) but yeah. It happened.
Saturday
I pick her up and we go get the morning after pill. She has it with flavored water(?) and we hung out for the rest of the day and it was pretty cool.
Rest Of The Week
I spent it dealing with the possibility that I might become a father (thinking about medical aids, apartments), not because I really wanted to but to deal with the situation but she really didn't want to hear about this, said I was being weird wanting to talk about the baby when she hopes there isn't one and I should stop. Later on that week she told me that she doesn't trust me enough to be in that situation(making out etc..)
To be continued..
Why am I taking some of the blame : I initiated the whole thing, she wanted to go home but No..I wanted to get off I suppose, be intimate with her in a physical sense.
Friday
I slipt up, during mutual masturbation ("grinding") with my girlfriend, I came(totally took me by surprise)..and we were both semi-clothed. We kinda started freaking out and she said "Lets just have sex, I'm going take the morning after-pill tomorrow" and I agreed(stupid!!! epically so.) I really didn't want that to be the first time we had sex with each other (atmosphere and the location..a lot of things) but yeah. It happened.
Saturday
I pick her up and we go get the morning after pill. She has it with flavored water(?) and we hung out for the rest of the day and it was pretty cool.
Rest Of The Week
I spent it dealing with the possibility that I might become a father (thinking about medical aids, apartments), not because I really wanted to but to deal with the situation but she really didn't want to hear about this, said I was being weird wanting to talk about the baby when she hopes there isn't one and I should stop. Later on that week she told me that she doesn't trust me enough to be in that situation(making out etc..)
To be continued..
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