Nah!...just another "nuclear fusion" gone haywire.....
OK...J/K (just kidding), been through similar......
I've learned to laugh again...
"I met a beautiful girl and we were getting on great until I asked her out for a drink and she stormed off.
I'm beginning to think that every woman you meet at AA is a lesbian."
Good on yer dude! Having said that, I think that we are all crazy in some form or another. I like to call it being unique who you are. If we weren't, it would make coping in the real world extremely difficult.
I do hope you make leaps and bounds toward discovering the real you and find true happiness.