How should one rise from the ashes?

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This may be late, but happy Easter and for the ones wandering through tormenting endlessness, betrayed by wishful thinking and hopes of tomorrow. :erm:

Here where I lay free with the bright sun looking down upon earth, it shines ever so brightly on my red heart. Should this body die and die again a hundred times over, white bones turning to dust, without trace of a soul.

There is no inn on the way to underworld. What shall I become when this mind is dead and gone? I turn my head where sun is about to set, trying to hold back the night with it's increasing brilliance of promising ever lasting peace, slumber of infinity.

Humanity lost to me, twisting and turning with the notion of becoming unbound from society. Tucked away behind masked tranquillity while calmly rising out of the ashes... there is now something walking amongst the living.

Stripped of pride and dignity with only courage and perseverance to obtain that one last wish of a simple, a happy next day.

Born into this world from riches to rags, from shelter to reality. I had 22 good ones and depending one my views possibly 22 more to come.

Facing the realities of debilitating dyslexia, a less than fortunate education and as much family backing as an empty beer bottle to rely on.

Finances in ruin and a debt bubble ready to burst. Guess how liberating it feels to say screw the system, so keep on sending final demand love letters!:D

My plan of action is in place, it's called hope, and definitely in no deity. That simply put, is the whole plan.

So soon to be a street walker, a tourist of unbound direction or destination. I'll be travelling from robot to robot, door to door, odd jobs here and there. I'll be sitting next to the road at 6am with my bread loaf and canned beans watching how the traffic passes me by. I envy their vehicle's comfort... but I will also have my own set of wheels or better put home on wheels.

I'll get to live the real life now, away from fake people, the "first world" materialistic or love problems. Hey but look I also have some thing from woolies, my trusty trolly. Yes even the beggars worry about the brands of their trollies... we have pride you know?

So if you see a young white guy, no drugs, no alcohol, healthy, no religion, basically a decent guy soon to be on your the street corner... please give him SUN BLOCK and remember not all of us will use the money to buy boos or drugs with! Some of us have plans to save up and study, some how for how ever long it takes I'll do and so should you.

So please if you can provide me with any street smarts, begging or general survival tips, it will be much appreciated as the possibility of having to use them soon may be getting more real sooner than I imagined!:wtf:

Id love to hear any stories of people who were on the street and how you got back on your feet?
 
Hello! I am sorry to hear about your situation. You seem intelligent, well judging by the creative way you write your letter. Surely there is something you can do besides hitting the streets? Maybe if it's even a job at a retail store or something, or perhaps try your hand at freelance journalism or something? I am glad to see you remain positive through out all of this, alot of people will give up hope. Good luck, I really hope everything works out for the best for you! Please keep us updated :)
 
Advice - do not become homeless. It is one of the most difficult things on earth to get out of. Put your debt into liquidation and find a restaurant job and a bedsit and live subsistence like that till you get it together.
 
Please try to stay as close to the edge as possible when pushing your trolley along narrow roads and always go with the direction of traffic.
 
Wonderful advice abzo ;)


@ OP

You are far too young to be down in the pits forever.

You are what you make your life to be... If you see yourself as a vagrant you will become one.
 
Agreed. Hit the restart button on your life. Sell everything, get out of debt now. Go stay with a friend, YMCA or local church while you work to pay off the debts. Depending on your skills, try get a night job, they pay better per hour than day jobs. Any night job will do; security camera watching, janitor, deliveryman for Mr. Delivery that sort of thing. Get rid of the debt right now. Like as fast as is humanly possible.

Post what skills you have and where you live.

Considering this is an IT forum, I assume you have some internest in IT. Being 22, without any tertiary education (I assume), I abduct you are either a tech enthusiest or were a gamer at one point or the other. You'd be surprised that you can make money for really simple skills like building a PC from scratch, or basic network topology and hardware setups. You can offer yourself to comuter stores to build PCs for a couple hundred Rands, and it only takes about 40 minutes including OS install if you are good at it.

Anyway, best of luck.
 
There's this special song that I tend to sing in my head when things don't go the way I planned ..

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, try again
Cause if at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, dust yourself off and try again, try again

Good luck buddy.
 
evilstebunny said:
There's this special song that I tend to sing in my head when things don't go the way I planned ..

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, try again
Cause if at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off, and try again
You can dust it off and try again, dust yourself off and try again, try again

Good luck buddy.
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By the late Aaliyah?
 
biometrics said:
How does a dyslexic write so well?
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http://www.beatingdyslexia.com/index.html +Self study + spell checker? You should see how I write before spell checker gives it a red line here and there... aslo many self help PDF books: Like how to study, etc.

Also trying to teach my self maths, I love it but ya... (Self help PDF books FTW!)

agentrfr said:
Considering this is an IT forum, I assume you have some internest in IT. Being 22, without any tertiary education (I assume), I abduct you are either a tech enthusiest or were a gamer at one point or the other. You'd be surprised that you can make money for really simple skills like building a PC from scratch, or basic network topology and hardware setups. You can offer yourself to comuter stores to build PCs for a couple hundred Rands, and it only takes about 40 minutes including OS install if you are good at it.

Anyway, best of luck.
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I wanted to either go into the financial accounting rout or into web development, programming in general. I was both a tech enthusiast and a gamer. I can build computers and maybe even networks, fixing them is another story. I was 18-19 with my studies towards a programming diploma, but around that time financial troubles struck so I had to leave it. Then ever since then I have been dabbling a bit in the financial insurance sector.

I'm thinking of doing an IT diploma through Unisa some how.
 
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Do your IT diploma, that's fine. Do you have mental problems to speak of, depression possibly? Have you spoken to a doctor?

I can't advise enough against going the homeless route. That way madness lies. In the past I've survived on pennies, at least had a place to sleep, clothes and food. A r3000 stipend job would be (juuust) sufficient to survive as one person with limited needs. You are clearly bright enough and capable enough to do something.
 
My advice : Stop being so lazy and start pulling finger... worry less about writing dramatic posts on an online forum and more on getting a job and working your ass off.
 
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