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I was a heavy smoker for 19 years. I smoked Stuyvesant filter most of the time.
Quitting has been a goal for a very long time. an Elusive dream.
Quitting was not hard because i tried and failed. It was hard because i never quit. And sometimes it was hard because i did quit. And there in lies the answer as to how i broke free from this terrible habit / addiction.
I woke up one morning and looked in the mirror and thought to myself that i do not understand why i smoke. It makes very little sense to me. This ritual that has to be adhered to every 30 - 60 minutes in my case in order to appease the angry habit gods. I opened my mouth and shined a light into my mouth and observed the back of my throat and my tongue and other visible areas and also thought "my god, what a terrible disgusting orifice" So red and veiny and gross.
Granted i had upper respiratory tract infection again at the time.
Then this epiphany came to me. I am not a smoker.
How can i be a smoker and what is a smoker?
Was i born with a cigarette?
Was my body designed to require me to smoke to survive?
As far as i am aware my body requires food, water and air to sustain itself. Smoking is not part of that design so it seemed strange that i would be doing something that is not part of my core requirements to survive.
So i accepted that i have mislead myself and realized i am not a smoker.
That was 13 days ago and i have not touched another smoke.
I am not trying to quit either, hence i am not withholding anything from myself. So i am not getting upset and i am not irritable. You cannot quit smoking if you are not a smoker.
Hopefully this gives you something to think about.
Good luck on the journey.
Cheers
Quitting has been a goal for a very long time. an Elusive dream.
Quitting was not hard because i tried and failed. It was hard because i never quit. And sometimes it was hard because i did quit. And there in lies the answer as to how i broke free from this terrible habit / addiction.
I woke up one morning and looked in the mirror and thought to myself that i do not understand why i smoke. It makes very little sense to me. This ritual that has to be adhered to every 30 - 60 minutes in my case in order to appease the angry habit gods. I opened my mouth and shined a light into my mouth and observed the back of my throat and my tongue and other visible areas and also thought "my god, what a terrible disgusting orifice" So red and veiny and gross.
Granted i had upper respiratory tract infection again at the time.
Then this epiphany came to me. I am not a smoker.
How can i be a smoker and what is a smoker?
Was i born with a cigarette?
Was my body designed to require me to smoke to survive?
As far as i am aware my body requires food, water and air to sustain itself. Smoking is not part of that design so it seemed strange that i would be doing something that is not part of my core requirements to survive.
So i accepted that i have mislead myself and realized i am not a smoker.
That was 13 days ago and i have not touched another smoke.
I am not trying to quit either, hence i am not withholding anything from myself. So i am not getting upset and i am not irritable. You cannot quit smoking if you are not a smoker.
Hopefully this gives you something to think about.
Good luck on the journey.
Cheers