The d!ck within....

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This is a Monday thread. One I look at and wish the weekend never happened. Here goes:

I had the unforunate experience of screwing over one of the most precious relationships I was starting to build by being an absolute ****.

There's this amazing lady at the office that I quite much fancy; over the last week or two we've started hanging out together and things were great. She got me in a way few people do and I felt comfortable being myself with her.

She was privy to the fact that I despise my father; he was an alcoholic devilish **** who beat my mom and was generally a monster. I try so hard to be better than him. On Friday night, after having too much to drink - I was this monster. I shall not go into the details, but it was so bad, I really woke up wishing I was dead!

She took me out, bought me dinner, allowed me to sleep over at her place. Like a retard, I let my insecurities get the better of me and went snooping. I came across innocent conversations, which were none of my business, and well I flipped. I did not lay a hand on her, but I did touch and speak to her in a way guys that belong in hell do. It was so bad she decided to leave her own apartment whilst I passed out. I know - double dickmove on my part!

I have trampled a relationship booming with potential and I wish I could fix it. I have no idea where to start as she has made it clear she wants nothing more to do with me. The upside is that atleast she still talks me, a little atleast.

How do I fix this mess I created? I have already lost her - I just wish there was something I could do to get her back. In no capacity other than just a friend... She is a cool chick and that guy she met is not me. The fear that preoccupies my subconscious mind came out in a terrible way! She advised me to get an intense sport to rage all I can as she saw that it'll kill me.

Over the weekend, I contemplated resigning but that is the easy way out and it also says I am a wuss. I'd appreciate any input or advice. (If not help, ridicule me as is the norm then...)
 
Ouch - complete dick move, but I think you already know that.

I think the best thing you can do is have a chat to her and tell you why you did what you did - be open.

You need to face your fears. Resigning is def not the way to go - you can't run away from the problem.
 
Well I for one will not blame the booze. It's all you. So keep drinking and continue showing women your true colors.
 
Hey Dude

Good on you for recognising you have a problem.:)
Apologise , get her flowers and a card - delivered by netflorist perhaps?Explain to her that your insecurities got the better of you and tell her you didnt mean to flip out in that way, you were wrong and blah blah, get a hobbie to vent your energy etc etc.She is saying that she wants nothing furthur to do with you, but if she is still talking to you then i dont know if that is really the case or if she wants to play cat and mouse games.

Sorry dude, sounds like you had something good going and she liked you alot aswell.
 
Rocket Raccoon said:
Jesus H. Christ! She's right to stay the hell away from you.

Keep telling yourself that.
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It is not something I tell myself - it is a fact. My friends and ex girlfriends can testify that I'm an all round decent person. I really do not know what got into me.

Zewp said:
For one, stop getting drunk. Know your limits and don't go over them.
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8 months ago I quit. I got back to CT in July and in no time, I got back to my ol' life; started all over again. After Friday, I am done.

gregmcc said:
Ouch - complete dick move, but I think you already know that.

I think the best thing you can do is have a chat to her and tell you why you did what you did - be open.

You need to face your fears. Resigning is def not the way to go - you can't run away from the problem.
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We spoke via GTalk the very next day. She care/d - she gave it to me in simple English that I couldn't help but weep internally.

Scooby_Doo said:
Yip, time for you to give up drinking.
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That is only the start. I just yearn to show her I am not that ****.
 
Ninja'd said:
Well I for one will not blame the booze. It's all you. So keep drinking and continue showing women your true colors.
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Let's make it clear I am not blaming booze for my episode. It was all me. Just a side of me I have never seen or met before.

Batista said:
Hey Dude

Good on you for recognising you have a problem.:)

Sorry dude, sounds like you had something good going and she liked you alot aswell.
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Yup. She sure did. I ****ed up so badly, my spirit literally died a little. I mean, I'm a mama's boy - I am still in shock that I put some lovely woman through the **** used to put my dad through. It's falling of the worst kind!
 
Giving up drinking may be a tad harsh here people! Come on now! :erm:

Look OP - Do you get violent or grabby without alcohol? Have you got a history (if you care to share) of acting out like that before - drunk or sober?

It couldn't hurt to seek professional help to work through your anger issues.
Let them make a call on your drinking habits after some consultation.
Slim chances of you getting the gal back in your life after a double d|ck move.

What would be worse is getting her to go with you to counselling, as a means of showing her how sorry you are and how serious you are about getting help.
Do this part on your own, for yourself.
For now apologise.
Get some help if you're of the opinion you need it - or just someone to talk to - and then apologise to her again saying that you've made changes in your life.
Doesn't guarantee her coming back into yours - but it shows sincerity.
 
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You're just fortunate she is giving you the time of day after that. Pathetic
 
Scooby_Doo said:
Yip, time for you to give up drinking.
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First of all ^^ This. Stop drinking. You've seen how bad it can get.
Then start apologising with the knowledge that she will most likely not forgive you.
But if you don't it will haunt you forever. Tell her everything - exactly as you did up top.
We all have moments we regret for the rest of our lives, the least you can do is try to minimise the damage.
 
Anonymous™ said:
Over the weekend, I contemplated resigning but that is the easy way out and it also says I am a wuss. I'd appreciate any input or advice. (If not help, ridicule me as is the norm then...)
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Buck up!

There's a few okes on here who do paintball - go and get your rage out. And get it out good. Listen, I've been there done that (years ago) so I am going to assume you're young. Snooping was your downfall - and in more ways than one. You can't fix this with my advice but you can prevent it in future: NEVER SNOOP!

The benefits of not trying to invade privacy is that you get privacy respected in return. And that, my friend, is very important as you get older. The last thing you need on a Friday afternoon is a chick nagging you because you went to the pub but if snooping is the way of the relationship, she has the same rights as you: to know (and then dictate) your every move.

If you can easily find new employment, consider a resignation: you made the workplace uncomfortable for both of you and unless she is fine with you staying on, I'd say you have a responsibility to your dignity and her welfare to find other employment. Sorry to put it that way.
 
Anonymous™ said:
That is only the start. I just yearn to show her I am not that ****.
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I think you need to make peace with the fact that you are that dick... and try to better yourself from here. Nothing is going to fix that relationship to what it was. Although I guess you could try patch it, but it will never be the same.
 
Ninja'd said:
Well I for one will not blame the booze. It's all you. So keep drinking and continue showing women your true colors.
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MY nigga :D

Zewp said:
Is it going to be a tad harsh when he loses his self-control and beats the **** out of a poor woman if he gets drunk next time?
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It's so hard to convey tone on the web.
Does one have to highlight sarcasm?
 
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