Big ups Astro, not many people can do that
I have an addictive personality so steer clear of anything illegal.
Always say if I know death's gonna come a-knockin' I'll take a delicious mix and visit tomorrowland.
All I can say for op.
It's harder when it's available. Almost impossible in fact.
You need to get away from availability. Rehabs and such, don't really help. They have such low success rates it's almost criminal that they are legal.
You need to get away and then stay away from sources. Keep moving.
The day I knew I was clean from crack was the day I was standing in Joe Slovo debating a dealer on the price of extacy (friends and I wanted some). He put a rock in my hand, I laughed, brought the price for it down by half, gave it back to him and left with the pills.
My friend called me a crazy vaalie cause talking back in Joe Slovo apparently gets you killed and we left with 6 more pills than he bargained for.
Anyway, on the above: a bit of substitution is not such a bad idea, smoke a joint, drink a 6pack, pop some pills or chew some mushrooms. Just mind the beer and don't overdo the pills.
Do not put things in your nose or veins.
On a side note, my aunt overdosed on kat, my brother killed himself, also a kat fan...
You need 6 to 9 months before the need becomes a bad dream. It's not so much to pay for decades of future.