Drug Addict - Relapsed ( Loop )

inaloz

inaloz

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I've been using kat for about 2 years now, 4 times a month. I blow a bag every weekend and sometimes during the week. I'm not sure if I'll ever go back to my normal life and that frustrates me to a point that makes me want to use again. I hate myself for doing drugs and when my life is getting better for about 3 days of being sober I get scared and use drugs to escape.

I'm an addict and I really want to quit but I need someone to tell me how they quit? I want to quit sooo bad but I feel like its too late, like my brain will never recover again. I'm 27yrs old and I already feel worthless and always depressed.
Are there any pills I can take to reduce the pain of withdrawals? Because I've tried so many times to quit when I get to day 3 or 4 I get nightmares, vivid nightmares of demons trying to take me, rape ( somnophilia , raptophilia or voyeurism ), or people beheading me. This is basically the hardest phase for me, I need pills, strong pills to take the pain away and put me to sleep.

I broke up with my girlfriend because I was destroying her life, I don't want my family to know and rehab is not an option. Unless I'm wrong? Help.
 
inaloz said:
I've been using kat for about 2 years now, 4 times a month. I blow a bag every weekend and sometimes during the week. I'm not sure if I'll ever go back to my normal life and that frustrates me to a point that makes me want to use again. I hate myself for doing drugs and when my life is getting better for about 3 days of being sober I get scared and use drugs to escape.

I'm an addict and I really want to quit but I need someone to tell me how they quit? I want to quit sooo bad but I feel like its too late, like my brain will never recover again. I'm 27yrs old and I already feel worthless and always depressed.
Are there any pills I can take to reduce the pain of withdrawals? Because I've tried so many times to quit when I get to day 3 or 4 I get nightmares, vivid nightmares of demons trying to take me, rape ( somnophilia , raptophilia or voyeurism ), or people beheading me. This is basically the hardest phase for me, I need pills, strong pills to take the pain away and put me to sleep.

I broke up with my girlfriend because I was destroying her life, I don't want my family to know and rehab is not an option. Unless I'm wrong? Help.
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You want more drugs to get over your drugs? Sorry chap, life is not going to give you an easy way out. Hanker down, join a group and accept withdrawal is going to suck and then do it.

You can do it!
 
Never going to work the way you want. If withdrawal/getting sober is easy, you will never appreciate it. Take the "pain" (kat is not physically addictive, so there should be no pain) in your stride and take it one day at a time. NO ONE can help you if you won't help yourself.
 
Rehab. You can go to weekly group sessions but it's probably gonna be better to check yourself in for a few weeks. They'll be able to help when you're really struggling
 
It takes huge willpower to break the habit.

Are your friends also users? If so, the first thing to do is break ties with them.

When the ex-addicts join your thread you'll get good advice.
 
Rehab.
Simple as that.
Also its pretty clear your friends got you into it.
Break all contact with those friends.

And you need to be humble. Face the greatest fear and admit your problem to the people who you are most afraid of finding out.

Ask for help and push though.

Also stop drinking, it will only make the cravings worse.
 
Baxteen said:
Rehab.
Simple as that.
Also its pretty clear your friends got you into it.
Break all contact with those friends.

And you need to be humble. Face the greatest fear and admit your problem to the people who you are most afraid of finding out.

Ask for help and push though.

Also stop drinking, it will only make the cravings worse.
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Disagree.

Rehab is not the only way. Also does not work for everyone. In some cases makes things worse.
 
Deadmanza said:
Disagree.

Rehab is not the only way. Also does not work for everyone. In some cases makes things worse.
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It's the best option.
Admit that you can't quit on your own, go to rehab.
That 12 step BS did not work for me, but I learned other coping mechanisms that allowed me to become sober.
 
Baxteen said:
It's the best option.
Admit that you can't quit on your own, go to rehab.
That 12 step BS did not work for me, but I learned other coping mechanisms that allowed me to become sober.
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I guess it depends on the person.
I agree with you that he needs to cut all ties with his current group of friends.
 
@copacetic

EDIT: Not that I'm implying he's used kat, but he's good with addiction advice.
 
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Eish and you are hooked to the PIG drug, the one where you take and you want to take more after the first hit.
If you really wanna stop, you stop, or you go to rehab. You know the triggers, you know why you do it, you know selling your stuff for this habit makes you feel worse. Just stop, when you pick up the phone to phone the dealer. That's your moment to stop. Delete the mates who do it aswell. No contact with users. Or go to rehab.
 
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Although you imagine your family don't realise it, they're probably know something's up.

Would it be easier for you to come clean - or not?
 
inaloz said:
I've been using kat for about 2 years now, 4 times a month. I blow a bag every weekend and sometimes during the week. I'm not sure if I'll ever go back to my normal life and that frustrates me to a point that makes me want to use again. I hate myself for doing drugs and when my life is getting better for about 3 days of being sober I get scared and use drugs to escape.

I'm an addict and I really want to quit but I need someone to tell me how they quit? I want to quit sooo bad but I feel like its too late, like my brain will never recover again. I'm 27yrs old and I already feel worthless and always depressed.
Are there any pills I can take to reduce the pain of withdrawals? Because I've tried so many times to quit when I get to day 3 or 4 I get nightmares, vivid nightmares of demons trying to take me, rape ( somnophilia , raptophilia or voyeurism ), or people beheading me. This is basically the hardest phase for me, I need pills, strong pills to take the pain away and put me to sleep.

I broke up with my girlfriend because I was destroying her life, I don't want my family to know and rehab is not an option. Unless I'm wrong? Help.
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I've walked a road with a couple of drug addicts. You will need to get to a place where you can go through Rehab and be surrounded by support. Once you got the support it might not be a bad thing to inform your family, depending on the circumstances, as they can be there for the difficult times. The ones who relapse are usually distancing them from the support or surrounding them again with the wrong friends/old friends. It is okay to fail, but at least try.
Those I've walked with and went back to their old life's know I am there for when they want to make the decision again.
You need support bro and you might even need your family if the circumstances are right. Get the support and accountability first.

Do you know a support group or organisation in your area?
 
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Rehab,anti-anxiety and anti-depressant meds to take the edge off the withdrawal. Either way need professional help or patience to get into a free-rehab
 
An ex of mine took himself out with his kat use last weekend. We're long separated & I saw this coming, so good riddance, actually.

It started as partying over weekends, progressed to needing a snort to get through the working day, to stealing and ****ing over everyone within reach to get his next fix.

My advice to OP is for everyone that cares about you to get as far away as possible from you..
 
Ex wife number one managed to go from kat to heroin. She gets out of a six week stint at Castle Carey this weekend.

Rehab may not be the op's only option, but willpower alone will not do it for him.
 
Im interested to hear from the OP:

Is it pleasurable when you take it? If so is it short lived and what happens next?
 
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