Lockdown depression

copacetic said:
I did this questionnaire a couple days ago and got 21/27 (iirc).

I live by myself, and I thought this would be easy(ish), as I'm generally relatively introverted. What I did not realise is that my previous situation, being the occasional social outing, plus exposure to my colleagues at work was actually an INCREDIBLY important part of my life, and the lack of those things has had a far more dramatic effect than I anticipated.

Part of the problem is also to do with the working from home thing (which I am very fortunate to be able to do) in combination with the pandemic itself - It's difficult keeping a healthy and productive attitude towards work when parts of your brain are telling you '**** it, the world's ending' and other parts are worrying about friends and family in other cities, etc. But obviously the reality is that all the important things still are, now there are just more important things to add to the mix.

But this whole thing has definitely had a profound psychological effect, and a totally unexpected one. And my situation is by all accounts pretty good - I've got lots to keep me entertained, and plenty of work to do. It just turns out the thing I really need at this time, is something I've always thought I can do relatively well without: company.
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24/27.The last question is dark AF. I pretty much know I'm a few chips short of a happy meal.
 
r4nd0m said:
1/27 and only because I was lazy to do stuff.

I didn't realize you guys were affected to such a degree. Makes one think. Don't worry, everything will be okay.
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For some personal context - I was diagnosed with severe depression as a young person, so not a huge surprise for me. What is interesting is that I've been working on that, and the lockdown situation has definitely made it worse, which I did not anticipate.
 
The lockdown rules don't get to me much at all.

Having to take care of a baby while both parents are working from home is what's making me really depressed.

We have to take turns to work and since the little guy is not at an age where he can do anything on his own.
My hours are pretty flexible but filling my hours on real work is something I have to do.
With all the breaks to look after the little one, I end up working late every night and most weekends to catch up.
Doesn't really help that it's also been the busiest I've ever been "at work"

The fact that I still have a job and money coming in has been pushing me to just carry on since I am really grateful for that.
Just wish I could spend more time focusing on him than work...
 
PsYTraNc3 said:
The lockdown rules don't get to me much at all.

Having to take care of a baby while both parents are working from home is what's making me really depressed.

We have to take turns to work and since the little guy is not at an age where he can do anything on his own.
My hours are pretty flexible but filling my hours on real work is something I have to do.
With all the breaks to look after the little one, I end up working late every night and most weekends to catch up.
Doesn't really help that it's also been the busiest I've ever been "at work"

The fact that I still have a job and money coming in has been pushing me to just carry on since I am really grateful for that.
Just wish I could spend more time focusing on him than work...
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I have a similar situation between the wife and myself at home.

It's not that I don't enjoy spending time with my son. It's really hard to do that properly when in the back of your mind, your boss is still expecting some results in the morning check-in.
 
copacetic said:
For some personal context - I was diagnosed with severe depression as a young person, so not a huge surprise for me. What is interesting is that I've been working on that, and the lockdown situation has definitely made it worse, which I did not anticipate.
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You know my story too.
I agree with everything you said in this thread as well.
I lived a lock down life in essence for a very long time so far.
It's only now that it's effecting my psyche.
I also miss the casual encounter and the few times seeing a friend.
Now I feel bad for regular folks out there that did not live a life of confinement as I did and do.
 
|tera| said:
You know my story too.
I agree with everything you said in this thread as well.
I lived a lock down life in essence for a very long time so far.
It's only now that it's effecting my psyche.
I also miss the casual encounter and the few times seeing a friend.
Now I feel bad for regular folks out there that did not live a life of confinement as I did and do.
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What do you think caused it or contributed to your 'lock down life'?
 
Arandompeer said:
What do you think caused it or contributed to your 'lock down life'?
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It's a long story. I've posted here and there about it.

I suffer from Bipolar disorder.
I'm heavily medicated and have attempted suicide a few times.

People, including family attempt to 'treat' me themselves.
Don't get me wrong. I love my family and their support.

I just find that if people know or hear about my life and past they automatically treat me negatively. I'm treated inferior and like I'm a child that requires rearing.

Being ill I've had to deal with many inflated egos in my life. Yes I also have a healthy ego, but I use it sparingly.

It's taking some time to get myself and my goals set into place. I'm currently just holding on and doing what I've been doing for the last few years.
 
|tera| said:
It's a long story. I've posted here and there about it.

I suffer from Bipolar disorder.
I'm heavily medicated and have attempted suicide a few times.

People, including family attempt to 'treat' me themselves.
Don't get me wrong. I love my family and their support.

I just find that if people know or hear about my life and past they automatically treat me negatively. I'm treated inferior and like I'm a child that requires rearing.

Being ill I've had to deal with many inflated egos in my life. Yes I also have a healthy ego, but I use it sparingly.

It's taking some time to get myself and my goals set into place. I'm currently just holding on and doing what I've been doing for the last few years.
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**** thats some hectic stuff. I try to debug myself sometimes. For some reason I pushed a lot of people way. I have friends but I don't like getting to personal. School was just drugs and porn, never hung out with friends after class. About 3 years ago I started having anxiety, panic attacks and depression. I think the factors I mentioned above messed me up a bit. Im still 21 so lets hope I can figure my **** out :unsure:
 
Dunno. I am loving this. My days look like this.
Get up, smoke, shower.
Start work at 7:30 End at 16:00
I take breaks every 2 hours, and spend 15 minutes outside. Work in the garden. Fix some stuff around the house.
My output is the same as if i were at the office. Difference is, i am very focused while in front of the pc.

I do miss running. I cant run in the morning but that changes next week then i can run again. I prefer running mid day.
Also, i have a toddler so there is very little time to be depressed. And coming from someone with anxiety disorder, complex ptsd and clinical depression i have found the last few weeks much less stressing and frankly very relaxing.

Possibly cause i loathe people and now i get to have my own space.
 
Arandompeer said:
**** thats some hectic stuff. I try to debug myself sometimes. For some reason I pushed a lot of people way. I have friends but I don't like getting to personal. School was just drugs and porn, never hung out with friends after class. About 3 years ago I started having anxiety, panic attacks and depression. I think the factors I mentioned above messed me up a bit. Im still 21 so lets hope I can figure my **** out :unsure:
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You're young, not that age matters.
Some times in your life things are good, sometimes bad.
The bad times suck, if not for everyone.
My simple advice to young people remains the same.

*look after your health. Especially your teeth. You'll need them later in life.
*Own up to your own actions. Don't blame other people for your mistakes. Learn from your mistakes.
*Do the best you can, it will always be enough, no matter whom you are.
*Always be yourself.

Then my personal advice to you. Don't be where I've been.
Don't allow depression, stress or events out of your control to direct your life.
You steer your boat/ship/monster truck. You steer where your life is headed.
If you ever come to a point where you contemplate suicide or feel like there's no hope, do the right thing and reach out for help.
Even if you only need to speak to a medical professional like a doctor, psychiatrist or psychologist. Don't allow your mind to make the wrong choices.

All in all. My advice isn't worth sht if someone is incapable of doing anything I mentioned.
Life is hard. Today I'm feeling good. I don't know what tomorrow brings. The same with everyone.
 
copacetic said:
I did this questionnaire a couple days ago and got 21/27 (iirc).

I live by myself, and I thought this would be easy(ish), as I'm generally relatively introverted. What I did not realise is that my previous situation, being the occasional social outing, plus exposure to my colleagues at work was actually an INCREDIBLY important part of my life, and the lack of those things has had a far more dramatic effect than I anticipated.

Part of the problem is also to do with the working from home thing (which I am very fortunate to be able to do) in combination with the pandemic itself - It's difficult keeping a healthy and productive attitude towards work when parts of your brain are telling you '**** it, the world's ending' and other parts are worrying about friends and family in other cities, etc. But obviously the reality is that all the important things still are, now there are just more important things to add to the mix.

But this whole thing has definitely had a profound psychological effect, and a totally unexpected one. And my situation is by all accounts pretty good - I've got lots to keep me entertained, and plenty of work to do. It just turns out the thing I really need at this time, is something I've always thought I can do relatively well without: company.
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Tried that questionnaire out and got a 4... I'm cured!

I think things are far worse for saffers as the access to certain things is very limiting. I have been working full time from home for almost a year now and things have been quite good. Friends live about an hour or more away so don't see them often anyway and the area I live in it's mostly middle aged families that are so busy doing the everyday life stuff that they don't really make friends and so besides the GF I have gotten use to being alone.

I guess the most important thing for people's sanity is being able to keep busy. Some people struggle with this where I have the complete opposite issue. I've been so busy with work that the last 2 weeks I've been working 14hrs a day (deadlines yay!). Over and above that I've been learning guitar and try to practise an hour a day and with hobbies of programming, electronics as well as gaming and much more. If anything I get depressed that I am going to die before I get to do, see and learn everything I'd like to and with the wonders of the internet there's literally everything at your fingertips.
 
newby_investor said:
I have a similar situation between the wife and myself at home.

It's not that I don't enjoy spending time with my son. It's really hard to do that properly when in the back of your mind, your boss is still expecting some results in the morning check-in.
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Yeah it's really hard and then you get managers like one who has a teenager and wife who is not working but seems to think they are in the same situation.
 
I think Sinbad had it right.

I'm managing absolutely fine. I have 2-2.5 hours extra per day (not driving to the office, and less stress), so I can sleep later, and go for a run/walk. I dress properly for work (well, for everything - I've worn basically the same outfit for over two months now), I can focus on my work (we have status meetings in morning and afternoon, and that really helps set daily goals), and I chat to friends on video a couple of times a week. On Fridays, I pack up my computer, and I have fewer weekend commitments, so more leisure time for hobbies.
 
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PsYTraNc3 said:
Yeah it's really hard and then you get managers like one who has a teenager and wife who is not working but seems to think they are in the same situation.
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In my case my manager has been pretty understanding overall. But psychologically, I feel so stupid reporting "no progress" after a whole day's work that I have probably not been approaching the day's tasks in a healthy manner.
 
Personally, I think while most folks are staying at home and it's not like in the wars etc with physical danger, the stress level is very high to the avg person.

I read somewhere that we are having more suicides in four weeks than we normally have in four months. Depression, stress related illness like hypertension etc are causing huge physical damage, even though it may not be outward appearing.
 
r4nd0m said:
Just to show you how different people are, I am super happy under lock-down. Solitary and alone, fully focused and my work is done during set times.

Not making fun of you friend, just trying to illustrate how different we all are. The things that make us happy varies between individuals in different ways.

I am dreading the call back to the plantation though. I am getting so used to this vibe, sans the unavailability of products, services and takeout of course.

Good luck and remember, it has to go back to 'normal', but will it ever be the same? Mmm...
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I have been working from home for 2 years and would absolutely hate to go back to an office, quite happy in my own space.
Not taking a dig at you, the rhetoric is being thrown around all over the place. I get super annoyed when I see people saying there will be a new normal and that things wont go back to the way they were before.
Why wouldnt they? its a virus ffs, people will build immunity to it and everything will go back to normal. This has been seen countless times before in history with actual devastating viruses.
Sure some companies will make more use of technology for meetings and more people might work from home more often, but that is about it.
 
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