You have the internet. Rather spend your time googling unskilled labour opportunities, internships, leaderships, youth opportunities. Research all the government youth employment programmes. You might think you've hit the bottom. You haven't. When you are in your 30s all these programmes won't be available to you. Hell at your age and your situation I'd even consider joining the army. I think the cutoff is 27 last time I checked.By saying "I hate stealing and begging" I mean I'd rather endure what I'm going through or surrender to my suicidal thoughts than do any of those. That ain't an option for me. I never stole from anyone.*
Point is. Rather use the internet to find all the opportunities you don;t know about than spending your time wasted on suicidal thoughts.