i obviously shared this beforehand with her and she said it's cool. without turning this into a days of our lives she had her own kink and i let her do it to me too. i didn't just spring this on her one day.
cheating isn't wrong, what i feel is wrong is denying it when you have claimed that you wanted somehtign else. becoming a christian and going to church and claiming you want to be more spiritual but instead you **** the pastor's brains out isn't exactly honest.
i gave her plenty of intimacy and affection, the hardest part was her becoming my ex meant that i couldn't hug her or kiss her any more, which i probably did every hour of the day. there are two sides to every story, but i already have enough self-loathign without her highlighting it as a reason for the break up when she clearly wanted another man's cock.
this is also not the first time she's cheated, when i was at my new job and seldom hom she was already chasing another guy.
and yes, i've killed people with the strangling stuff before