Binge Drinking! ~ Moose Calls Time!

Mortymoose

Mortymoose

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It dawned apon me as I threw yet another McDonald fries chip into the mouth of my Congolese Uber driver late on Saturday night, that I might have a drinking problem.

:X3: , Trying to climb out of a moving Uber on Broadway after midnight was the last straw. At the time, it seemed and felt like I was still that idiotic carefree well built youth of 1989........ Partying away long after closing time at the Triggerfish with the owner and the one man band seemed like a glorious reminder of how I rolled on through my twenties, thirties and most of my forties...... Life that evening seemed fantastic, tripping the light fandango......... The Moose was unstoppable....

Reality set in the following morning, when FirstBornMoose and SecondBornMoose gave me a dressing down, "Papa! You'r a feckin idiot when you get drunk!", said the elder of the two...... followed by , " You become reckless and were rude to Jimmy!", From daughter number two.......
:oops:

I sat around the breakfast table in the Timeless Cafe on beach road as they muttered away and all I kept thinking, "Who the feck was Jimmy?".

Later on in the day, I had to say goodbye to the English Outlaws, Father in law calling me closer for a few words...... As I mentioned before on these forums, He is in the final stages of Stage 4 Lung cancer that has spread to liver and bones, a mere shadow of a man..... He whispered a few personal words, no regrets but humbly more worried for his wife and daughter........ I hugged him farewell.......... and suddenly all I could think was, "What have I done........?"

What had I done, I started to think of my own immortality, knocking on the door of fifty in a few months, my lifestyle would have to change.....

For the past three days since returning to Namibia, I have researched with my mate Google and are more convinced than ever, though I may not be a full blown alcoholic, I am indeed a binge drinker.

My daughters informed me that I went through the entire list of the Triggerfish brew and then went back for another round, They make rum there, I did not even know this, but sources inform me, that when they saw the old man (That's me) , knocking back a few neat shots, they knew that night had come to an end.....

Playing Badminton with the English HO this morning across the road at the courts, My mind kept on racing...... From the age of sixteen I was drinking beer, my life took a dramatic turn at 19, because of alcohol, I have stood over the body of a dying friend in a car wreck in WIndhoek, because of alcohol, I was involved in Bar fights in Lime Acres, Kimberley, Windhoek, Cape Town..... Because of Alcohol.
My massive boep, Because of alcohol......... My Hernia, Because of Alcohol........ My Gout, because of alcohol....... My double Chin, because of alcohol..........It dawned apon me that at almost every major turn in my life, it was not fate, but booze.......

So my friends, I am finished..... my time has come...... and no longer will I be drinking.....(The English HO yawned when I stated this), I feel that by posting this here, I shall be held accountable....

So....... I need a good recipe for space cakes, anyone?

Oh! I found out Jimmy was the Uber driver, but I tipped him very very well.......

:cool::rolleyes:
 
Cius

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Good decision Moose. Hope you can stick to it. Never been a drinker so no idea what it will take to give it up but having worked with a lot of people with alcoholism related issues I can say it is a good decision. That realization that a lot of the bad stuff in your life is related to it in my experience the most important step as its the step that takes you beyond denial.

The most important thing is to decide for yourself.
 
grok

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Oh hi Morty!


That's the second time this week I've said that, the fist was when confronted by my own mortality after hearing my aunt of 82 had died.

My point? Not related to Muerte, but a little motivation..

I stopped smoking 3 years ago to the month - 1, don't think about cigarettes, don't miss smoking at all, this after thinking for years I won't be able & panicking when thinking of stopping.

Just pointing out how it is possible to change your habits if you really want to. Good luck!
 
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I had been a binge drinker for almost 20 years, Alcohol was the trigger for me to do dumber things and I had a long long history of taking way too many narcotics as well. The frequency of these phases changed throughout the years, sometimes it was weekly, sometimes more than once a week and occasionally i managed to keep a few weeks between the next destructive episode. Throughout this though, I did well at my job and managed to keep life going on as if nothing was happening.

Stopping is exceptionally hard, in my case being the party animal almost defined who I was. When we went out it was always me who got it going, people made jokes saying, "he is here, its going to be a rough night". They all enjoyed it, I guess I did too, but it became who i was. Weak as it sounds, it became hard to not be that person, to portray this unstoppable party animal who turns 3 drinks into a 24 hour destruction marathon.

I dont know exactly what changed, I wish I did so I could help others, but I manage to slow down the cycle. I got in shape, I got tired of feeling rubbish, I dont get those exceptional happy highs anymore, but I have a more constant contentment with myself and with life, and although sometimes I miss those "fun" times, i just remember how I felt when I got up in the morning and how much I achieved.

I hope you do manage to get this under control, I dont know if stopping completely is the way or just regulating, but whatever works for you, I hope you own it!
 
ToxicBunny

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Morty, I would think you've hit the nail on the head in terms of classifying yourself as binge drinker.

This is not necessarily a bad thing mind you, but it is always a start to be aware and to accept things.

I wish you strength in your journey of non-drinking.... I know its not an easy thing to achieve (I've tried a few times and failed miserably since I enjoy a quite drink at the pub way too much)
 
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delta66

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thanks for your post. also turning 50(18 July) and im a binge drinker..can relate on a personal level to the destructive tendencies. the struggle is real but it can be done! All the best to you sir.
 
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Yeah it's amazing how often our kids are the triggers for major changes in our lives. OK maybe not amazing, they should change us I guess. But interesting nonetheless.

Ja drinking and kids - I'll admit I drink in front of my little ones, I don't get drunk in front of them though. Maybe that'll change when they're older, I dunno - I'll figure that part out later.

Good luck OP
 
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jezzad

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Ja boet, understand what your dealing with and we both know all too well how it can end up.

Take a month off and see how you feel, I would not cut it out completely. I ice cold beer next to the fire does something for the soul and helps you unwind. Not having this will add to the stress and strains of live.

I still maintain a pizza and a couple of beers after a hard week of work does wonders to your stress levels and quality of life. Something a salad and cool drink won’t do.

I often take a month off from booze and its really difficult, even if you dont buy the stuff its always on offer. Saying no thanks and people immediately ask what’s wrong with you.
 
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