I suffered from the typical teenage depression phase, but I must say it was to quite an extent. Then later during early to mid 20's it came back with a vengeance, but a change of job (After 5 years of battling) seemed to solve most of it. Even at the time I thought there was something wrong with me and went to Doctors and specialists until I just gave up on them too.
Nowadays I'm quite happy. My state of happiness or depression doesn't really seem to be an issue anymore. All that matters is me working towards goals, solving the worlds problems (in my mind

), structuring my life to perfection and the "thrill of the chase" so to speak. There are many things I want to achieve and all that depresses me now is not having the time to do it.
Can't say exactly why the turnaround, nor can I say that when I was depressed if it was to the extent of Copa. Believe you me I understand all too well that we are all ultimately doomed.
I can't even give anyone my methods and understanding for how or why I carry on, on a day-to-day basis, as it is perfectly tuned to me only. All I can advise though is to change your methods with everything you do, and when it doesn't work change it again. Keep making new "games" or new methodologies every time. And learn to give the finger to all the bad stuff.
If you take my understanding of how the brain really works then find ways to "import" more things you want to pursue into the positive side of your survival. Sometimes it just takes a serious role model, or a renewed understanding, to suddenly flick the switch on a new passion in life. My take is that depression is possibly just a lack of passion. Imbalanced chemicals etc... aside of course, as I'm no expert.
Meh... not sure if any of this helps. Anyway keep it up Copa
