jacqvt I still don't know whether you do your job because you love working with meat or you do it to have a income at the end of the month , or whether your are “helping” your dad, as you haven't answered that, one thing I “discovered” with depression is that I have never seen somebody with depression that enjoys their job/occupation, (not that I have seen so many with depression, I am just speaking for myself, and what I observe from family members with depression, I am not talking about people that have a depression and take’s the pills and are fixed and dont need pills anymore(that could be a chemical imbalance that are fixed by the pills, I'm talking about returning depression(getting depressed Again after you stopped using your pills) I have a family member that suffers from (“returning”) depression, who where told/made to study marketing and tourism, even though this member wanted to go into a sporting career as this person is crazy about sports, there was never something wrong (PERFECTLY HAPPY)with this person growing up, in school, and in college, this depression only showed its ugly head after this member had worked in a tourism/marketing environment for a few years
I also did a marketing course as my father has something about marketing (and tourism), I knew i did not want to do it, but I wasnt raised in a democracy, so I knew that what I wanted/felt like doing would not be good enough, as my dad had a few farms and a company I had to help run eventually, so didnt even bothered to tell what I want to do, partly as thats how I was brought up as well (die laaitie gaan eendag die plaas ens oorvat .... ) what did I know how careers work, thats probably how it is , so I just accepted it and studied what I had to,I eventually ended up at one of the businesses( at the operations side) and worked there for a few years, and hated every minute of it,feeling very down, even though I think I was fairly ok (aka good) at what I did, but I was not made/cut to work with people, and did not treat them properly , which I am ashamed of today in hindsight. I was more like a machine, do this, do that, open this, close that, tell this one to do this,that one to do that, switch this machine on , switch that one off.
I think just because you can do a job( and do it good) doesn't mean it is THE JOB(occupation) for you, everybody can wash a car and get it clean, to some men it is spending the whole saturday morning getting the chamois and polish out and spitting and polishing and shinning( they love cleaning their car) and to others it is a quick wash with a old rag 10 minutes and they are finished.
I finally decided to leave the job and are now pursuing what some would call a passion I call it a talent/skeppings doel, I never knew what I wanted to do, because I was told that I will follow in my dads foorprints
, but ever since I was a child ,I had this burning in me to photograph stuff, I can remember in school I wanted to join the photo club at school but never did (as it was not good enough/didn't met my parent requirements, as I had a family member who was in to photography but wasnt ‘much loved’ so I presumed photography is out of the option) I just had this burning desire in me to take photo’s, never realizing that perhaps this should be my career, after studying I wondered what would I do, would I go into this or that, (even though it was clear as day that I will work for my dad whatever it take), but was still unsure, so I dreamed of doing this career and that career,one of it was even starting a 7-11 shop as they were popping up all over the show at the time, but I just had in my mind how I will take photos of the shop and send it overseas to my family that they can see it( that photo thing again) ,again in hind sight I can see that had I started a 7-11 it would have been for the wrong reasons. it eventually dawned on me that maybe I should do something photographically
I have another family member who ‘s brother in law is qualified as a graphic designer (and enjoy’s it) but work’s in a completely different field, I dont know why he does this job whether the pay is better , or whether he couldn't get a graphic design job, needles to say he is also on antidepressants.......
and one or two more with depression that is in the wrong job.....
struggling and stuff, I have since discovered God, even though I wont call myself a super christian (and are unsure if what has been taught ( jy mag nie rook/drink/steel nie ens.) in some afrikaans churches in the past are really Jesus/God, I think christianity also includes your career)
there is this verse in the Mathew 11 , 28 kom na my toe , almal wat vermoeid en belas is, en Ek sal julle rus gee. 29 neem my juk op julle en leer van My.......30 want my juk is sag en my las is lig.
and as it is with translation some things are lost, I have often wondered if that verse doesnt say,
kom na my toe almal wat g@tvol(kaapse afrikaans) en depresief is, doen wat ek wil he jy moet doen, dit sal jou nie aftrek en teneergedruk(depresief) maak nie
I am a lot happier now that I am moving toward photography, in fact while busy with it I forget how bad life is and everything is just a pleasure, and there is no mountain high enough to climb to get to a photo, and the future is net rooskleurig, even though I dont know where my next money will come from , but Im sure He will supply, as he has been doing for the past few months
Im not very clued up on cars, but think you can compare people to these new bluetech mercedes( or equivalent) that needs a additive with the petrol at some regular services ( the car is being used as it is designed), without the additive you will still be able to drive but eventually you will stuff the engines up( not driving as the car is designed).
I think if you are in God’s calling for your life, the chemicals(like the stuff the bluetech mercedes needs) that are needed in your brain (to keep you from getting depressed) are automatically replenished (by God), and you keep happy, if you are not in your calling those chemicals are not automatically replenished , and I think those chemicals are released in a different way for each person according to your calling, just like a 1,6 liter engine will need a different amount that a 3liter engine, if you are supposed to be a farmer , the chemicals will not be released if you do a office job, the passion for farming triggers your chemicals,and the guy in the office job wont have his chemicals released by farming
should you be a pilot, driving a truck will not release the chemicals because your ‘engine’(body) needs flying to release the chemicals, and the truck driver wont have his chemicals released by flying
If often wondered if depres. isnt their to make you “search for more” in life , to find God, but the easier way is to get medecine, not that Im saying you do/dont know God its just something I have wondered about
Many children are taught: trou vir geld en werk vir liefde in a joking way , but words have power, and then the parents are confused when the child eventually get divorced, likewise manny are told to get a job that brings the money in, all about money , and nothing about
