Have you ever been stunned? Shocked maybe?
This is a pathetic story ... from my side ... but this is unfortunately my reality.
There is this girl (you can see where this is going) with whom I've been platonic friends for 2/3 years. I've toyed with, or entertained the notion of something happening between us but I seriously couldn't see it going anywhere (too many things counting against me going into a relationship with a girl) and thus I never took it seriously. Once during a group discussion about relationships we sat next to each other and while continuing to chat about the topic she even directly (as an illustration of her argument about the topic) said that she and I as a couple would never work. Okay. So I never pursued a relationship with her.
Nevertheless, as a man does while single, you sometimes imagine yourself in a relationship. The woman that usually gets manifested in my fantasies is this particular one. But like I said I've never taken it seriously, I have only played with the idea.
Tonight we got together for our usual Thursday evening social. She went and sat next to another guy (also a friend). But that's nothing strange, we are a mixed bunch. However during the evening I saw her starting to lean in his direction ... and I realized "Oh shyte! Here it comes". The leaning became more pronounced and at the end it was a deliberate snuggle in front of our whole group of single men and women.
Now imagine me sitting across from them, stone-faced, twiddling my thumbs, not laughing at some good jokes being told. I am shocked. I feel weak, almost paralyzed. But have no reason to be shocked. I should be happy for them, but I'm not. To make matters worse, I'm sure she picked up my slightly strange behavior (I also excused myself a bit early). And to make matters MUCH worse our group of friends are going camping tomorrow. This is a crap situation and I'm feeling pathetic.
EDIT: There is no connection between this post and my sig. It's a mere coincidence.
Go get her tiger!
