Hi there. So I'm back, but

D3nz said:
Actually, there is truth in what genelock says. If you're suffering from depression and you're on meds, but you're still feeling suicidal, then something needs to change. Either the meds are not the right antidepressant for Tera or the dosage is too low.
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Sure, but without any sort of history, it's irresponsible to go telling people on medication that they're on the wrong drugs. Simply. Not. An. Internet. Stranger's. Call. To. Make.

Professional treatment is critical, which Tera is undergoing.
 
Messugga said:
Sure, but without any sort of history, it's irresponsible to go telling people on medication that they're on the wrong drugs. Simply. Not. An. Internet. Stranger's. Call. To. Make.

Professional treatment is critical, which Tera is undergoing.
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yes that's what I said :rolleyes:

I have a sneaky suspicion it's the wrong medication, wrong dosage, wrong dr. or a combination
......

Person needs better professional help
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|tera| said:
I'm not sure if I'm going to let it all out.

In a nutshell I killed myself twice in a span of a year and a half. Spent 4 weeks in I.C.U., 2nd time was a week in hospital this year a day after my birthday.
I spent 4 months in rehab this year after that week.

Now I'm picking up the pieces of a shattered life and a family whom I hurt very much.

I'm very depressed, sad. My meds get monitored, given to me. I'm unemployed and trying my best to stand up again in life.

I am alive, but wish I wasn't.
So yes.

That's me.

Byes :) :D ;)
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Welcome back! Considering the last 18 months, good to see a return. Hope it only gets better from here for you!
 
Akirky said:
This is a touchy topic for me at the moment, my brother committed suicide last week.
I'm really glad your back, but please talk to those around you. They care a lot more than you think.
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Sorry to hear that Akirky. Sympathy to you and the fam.
 
|tera| said:
I'm not sure if I'm going to let it all out.

In a nutshell I killed myself twice in a span of a year and a half. Spent 4 weeks in I.C.U., 2nd time was a week in hospital this year a day after my birthday.
I spent 4 months in rehab this year after that week.

Now I'm picking up the pieces of a shattered life and a family whom I hurt very much.

I'm very depressed, sad. My meds get monitored, given to me. I'm unemployed and trying my best to stand up again in life.

I am alive, but wish I wasn't.
So yes.

That's me.

Byes :) :D ;)
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I don't know you and I don't want to sound insensitive, but you need to think about the ones you will leave behind when you keep doing this and how they will feel when you succeed. Depression runs in my family with my youngest brother being the worst sufferer as he sometimes becomes suicidal too. There's nothing more frighting for your family than the thought of losing you and not being able to do anything about it.

It might seem like it would be better for you if didn't exist anymore, but your family will have to pick up the pieces and they might also end up depressed like you if you kill yourself. They love you more than you think. Have you considered checking yourself into a psychiatric hospital for a month or two? It might help you as I know some people that were helped that way. Also it might help if you start doing something in your community. Helping others might help you build your self worth and stop you dwelling too much on your situation.
 
Akirky said:
This is a touchy topic for me at the moment, my brother committed suicide last week.
I'm really glad your back, but please talk to those around you. They care a lot more than you think.
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I'm so sorry you're going through this. You need to talk to someone as well. Don't underestimate the impact of what has happened to you.
 
Welcome back Tera, sort your demons and just know there is always light after the darkness. No matter how dark it must feel for you at any given day. Just know that there will be light again. Never forget that. Iirc you're from Pretoria also. If you just want to chat or go for a few drinks and hangout, let me know I'll gladly hang with you when you feeling down and need an upper!
 
Akirky said:
This is a touchy topic for me at the moment, my brother committed suicide last week.
I'm really glad your back, but please talk to those around you. They care a lot more than you think.
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Really sorry to hear this.
 
Welcome back |tera|.

I've been there. People who haven't don't always know how difficult it is. When all you can think about is wanting to die. And it's not as simple as people think to get out of it. It's all you want. And your brain works against you.

I too tried to kill myself back then. And also didn't succeed. I thought back then that I couldn't even do that right. I was without a job back then. The future looked bleak. There was just no reason to live.

But |tera|, things changed for me. I'm happy now. It took a long while to get here but things worked out for me.

So hang in there. May things get better for you again. If it did for me then man, it can for most people.

If you need to talk at all with someone who's been there, send me a pm.
 
Sad thread :(

Welcome back tera, I wish there was something I could say or do to help - if there is, just let me know. The same probably goes for every participant in this thread.

So sorry to hear about your brother Akirky, words escape me - I cannot express how sad I feel for you and those who loved him.

Solitude, it's good to hear that you've come through the bad times and are now feeling happiness. Your story gives hope to sufferers of depression.

Hang in there tera, we're here for you.
 
SaoirseB said:
I don't know you and I don't want to sound insensitive, but you need to think about the ones you will leave behind when you keep doing this and how they will feel when you succeed.
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I know you mean well, but guilt tripping people into wanting to live is ineffective because it builds resentment. It makes them even more unhappy because they end up feeling like they're living only for others.
 
Wanneer jy die stryd teen jouself verloor

Mense hét depressie en hét bipolêre of een of ander gemoedsversteuring. Hulle is dit nie. Mense het kanker. Hulle is nie kanker nie. Hulle het hoë bloeddruk en diabetes. Hulle is dit nie. Soos kanker of diabetes is gemoedsversteurings ʼn siektetoestand in ʼn mens se brein. Soos alle ander chroniese siektetoestande neem dit dikwels lank om te diagnoseer en net so lank om onder beheer te kry. En elke pasiënt se behandeling moet pasgemaak word vir sy/haar omstandighede. En daar is altyd weer die moontlikheid van ʼn terugslag. Wat dit vir mense met gemoedsversteurings moeilik maak, is dat die simptome verwar word met hul persoonlikheid, hul karakter, hul identiteit en menswees. Jy kan nie die siekte aan hulle lyf sien nie. Daar is nie ʼn kaal kop, ʼn insulieninspuiting, ʼn Medi-Alert-bandjie wat die siektestryd identifiseer nie. Daar is wel woedeuitbarstings, oordonderende emosies, irrasionele gedrag en angs. En daarom is daar oordeel. En oordeel sit die oorlog weer aan die gang.
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Moet jouself nooit blameer as jou geliefde die afklimpad kies nie. Sy of haar stryd was nie met die wêreld of met jou nie, hoewel die oorlog in sy of haar kop soms uitgespoel het na buite. Die stryd was met hom- of haarself en hy of sy het verloor. Was dit ʼn selfsugtige keuse? Nee. Dit was ʼn desperate keuse. ʼn Irrasionele keuse. Maar op daardie oomblik wat dit die enigste keuse wat hy of sy kon sien.
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It's an Afrikaans opinion piece, but it is very well written and give some good insight.
 
Stalin would tell you, you're useless that you even failed in killing your self :crylaugh:

kidding man, we need all the hard working manes we can get out there.
 
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