Ive been smoking for 17 years now, daily. I can go from very little to quite a bit per day, depending on what Im doing, my mood, how much time I spend in front of the PC, how active I am. On average, I will probably stick to .5g per day, but can easily be 2g if I binge. I dont smoke at work or before work, I save it till I get home. Weekends, wake and bake usually, then a walk on the mountain with my dogs. Lovely routine
I tend to go through cycles of using more or less, currently on a smoking less cycle as I come to the end of my previous harvest.
My behavior is generally pretty standard, and so is my mood.. but I deal with a high stress job, requires travel and ultimately leads me to 'work' while im not working. I find it generally difficult to switch off, brain is very active, all the time. I tend to over plan and over think which sort of comes with my project management type position so have gotten used to being able to slow myself down to enjoy the more simple things and not stew in my own thoughts all the time.
That said, my viewpoint is probably biased, you should ask my wife. She often tells me to go have a smoke because I cant shut off or shut down. I tend to react to bad news and things I cannot change which ultimately leads me to stressing. Ive developed an autoimmune disorder because of this stress called alopecia ariata.. hair loss in strange ways. I find smoking keeps this at bay, when i stop and in times of stress, it comes back with vengeance.
That said, its never demotivated me from doing anything, or stopped me from doing anything. never hindered my work ability or performance and I use it responsibly. I dont drink alcohol at all, and try stay away from carbs and sugar.
I think if i were to change my life, career, surroundings, i could likely stop for a while, but in my current environment, Im a creature of habit so find it hard to change my routine. But Cannabis is more than just something I smoke..
I make oil for sick people who need it, and the enjoyment I get through helping people overcome things like Psoriasis and general pain along with a ton of other ailments, confirms Ive made the right choices in my life, with or without my current habits. I hide nothing from anybody, even my bosses and was open with my family from the age of 18 as to where my interests lie. Took them 15 years to come around to the idea, and now my mom makes herself oil and grows her own crops. How times have changed.
So much to learn. Got a friend prepping some cuttings for me. Super interesting.