Ok well let this be my final post then.
My initial post here was to get some kind of clarity on this whole thing. Even in that thread I stated that I am aware of my own part in this and am in no way asking for anyone to hold my hand and guide the way. I asked for thoughts and insight. Having received that I have accepted my precence and understood my actions to a degree. No I wont turn him in because I love him and I know he wont survive jail. I could never disrupt his life in the way he has mine. Is it selfish in that I know he will do it again? Yes. I know. Am I crazy in saying that I'll get past this but he'll die in jail? I dont know. But that is my choice. I am not asking ANYONE to save me from him or myself. All I wanted was to have a space to talk about the screwed upness of it all.
Am I a victim by choice? Yes. Because I chose to give this man power over me for my own selfish reasons. Once again, this post was not about me. It was about men who say one thing and do another.
I did not want sympathy, I did not want help and I did not come in here looking for a saviour.
So long, fairwell, auf wiedersehen, good bye.
