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So the thread title may be misleading a bit.

I have issues.

I was told by an old man that referring to myself as a dick is not a good thing...
But the thing is I am a dick, I have few true friends, I bitch and moan a lot, I never go out with friends even when they beg me to, I don’t care about hurting people’s feelings. I am an ass hole

I am not looking for pity of any sorts, I just want to see how many people are out there just like me.

I have a job, get on with a few people there at work, no friends just acquaintances and colleagues.
I stay home often, don’t bother going out into the world unless it is somewhere I love going.
I seem to piss off the majority of the people I come into contact with.

I am a cynical ass hole and everything sucks.
I have been to see the men who fiddle with your head (brain – not other head)
Too little avail, he gave me meds to take but I cannot really see or feel them working.
I still feel the same, if not more cynical and depressed.

Am I bound to be like this for the rest of my life?

Yes this is a bitch-thread.
But does others out there go through the same thing or have you gone through the same thing and come out better?

Please keep this thread sincere, I am interested to see if I am the only one like this.

Stuart
 
StonerStuart said:
So the thread title may be misleading a bit.

I have issues.

I was told by an old man that referring to myself as a dick is not a good thing...
But the thing is I am a dick, I have few true friends, I bitch and moan a lot, I never go out with friends even when they beg me to, I don’t care about hurting people’s feelings. I am an ass hole

I am not looking for pity of any sorts, I just want to see how many people are out there just like me.

I have a job, get on with a few people there at work, no friends just acquaintances and colleagues.
I stay home often, don’t bother going out into the world unless it is somewhere I love going.
I seem to piss off the majority of the people I come into contact with.

I am a cynical ass hole and everything sucks.
I have been to see the men who fiddle with your head (brain – not other head)
Too little avail, he gave me meds to take but I cannot really see or feel them working.
I still feel the same, if not more cynical and depressed.

Am I bound to be like this for the rest of my life?

Yes this is a bitch-thread.
But does others out there go through the same thing or have you gone through the same thing and come out better?

Please keep this thread sincere, I am interested to see if I am the only one like this.

Stuart
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How old are you, out of interest?

I've been a miserable, angry, depressed wretch all my life. I've sort of improved as I've gotten older. Most of my anger has been directed inwards for the last few years. I've always had my nice, fun side but when depression sets in forget about it.
What's worked for me lately is a daily meditation practice. It really is sort of magical. This time of year I'm usually in a dark pit of depression and self loathing - like blow my fccking brains out, bi-polar depressed.
So far this year I'm good. When I have start having those dark thoughts I know they'll go away soon enough and I just watch them drift by.
I dunno if you've got what I've got but I reccomend meditation to everyone who suffers from depression. Its harder work than popping pills but there are zero side effects.
 
Nick333 said:
How old are you, out of interest?

I've been a miserable, angry, depressed wretch all my life. I've sort of improved as I've gotten older. Most of my anger has been directed inwards for the last few years. I've always had my nice, fun side but when depression sets in forget about it.
What's worked for me lately is a daily meditation practice. It really is sort of magical. This time of year I'm usually in a dark pit of depression and self loathing - like blow my fccking brains out, bi-polar depressed.
So far this year I'm good. When I have start having those dark thoughts I know they'll go away soon enough and I just watch them drift by.
I dunno if you've got what I've got but I reccomend meditation to everyone who suffers from depression. Its harder work than popping pills but there are zero side effects.
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I am 24, I must say that I am just getting worse. I too have a fun side, I can love and all that crap but whenever I start to feel down it is a sort of spiral that gets worse and worse everyday.
I am not suicidal, I am just in a place I cannot get out of simply. If I had enough motivation I could start feeling better but right now, everything is schit and I dont want to be around anyone.

I have never though of meditation, I will give that a try.
The pills, I seem to think are doing nothing at all I do not see any difference in myself and no one is close enough to me to notice any changes in me.

I will try that meditation out, suppose I should just google it.

How old are you by the way?
 
Consider also seeing a psychologist or your spiritual elder if you are so inclined. If you are not spiritual then a psychologist is your best bet its different to seeing a psychiatrist. Look for one that uses the analytical approach.

Sorry I just read your sig forgive the advice that doesn't apply.
 
buyeye said:
Consider also seeing a psychologist or your spiritual elder if you are so inclined. If you are not spiritual then a psychologist is your best bet its different to seeing a psychiatrist. Look for one that uses the analytical approach.

Sorry I just read your sig forgive the advice that doesn't apply.
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I am not inclined to talk to anyone, I do not need other people to point out my flaws. I do that well enough myself.
Psychologists talk too much, look at you, judge you, think to themselves what a fcked up individual you are. No thanks.

Psychiatrists are ok, they just feed you pills
 
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StonerStuart said:
I am 24, I must say that I am just getting worse. I too have a fun side, I can love and all that crap but whenever I start to feel down it is a sort of spiral that gets worse and worse everyday.
I am not suicidal, I am just in a place I cannot get out of simply. If I had enough motivation I could start feeling better but right now, everything is schit and I dont want to be around anyone.

I have never though of meditation, I will give that a try.
The pills, I seem to think are doing nothing at all I do not see any difference in myself and no one is close enough to me to notice any changes in me.

I will try that meditation out, suppose I should just google it.

How old are you by the way?
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Hey bub. Textbook depression. The meds generally start working at around 4 weeks only. How long have you been on them and what are you taking ?
 
StonerStuart said:
Psychologists talk too much, look at you, judge you, think to themselves what a fcked up individual you are. No thanks.
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either you've had a bad experience with a kak psychologist or you're making a very broad generalised statement
 
StonerStuart said:
I am not inclined to talk to anyone, I do not need other people to point out my flaws. I do that well enough myself.
Psychologists talk too much, look at you, judge you, think to themselves what a fcked up individual you are. No thanks.

Psychiatrists are ok, they just f
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Well what you described is everything a psychologists is not meant to do. But a psychiatrist is far better qualified to deal with what sounds like chemical depression. This can be regulated with medication. Good luck going forwards.
 
At 24 I was in a far worse state, no job or social life... but at 30 I am engaged to be married because I decided to just give romance a shot.... even though every day is incredibly difficult socially, making new friends is almost impossible for me now, I can't open up that easy.

Meeting new people, going to the shops, etc. leaves me tense and in a bad shape. My SO keeps me going though.
 
StonerStuart said:
I am 24, I must say that I am just getting worse. I too have a fun side, I can love and all that crap but whenever I start to feel down it is a sort of spiral that gets worse and worse everyday.
I am not suicidal, I am just in a place I cannot get out of simply. If I had enough motivation I could start feeling better but right now, everything is schit and I dont want to be around anyone.

I have never though of meditation, I will give that a try.
The pills, I seem to think are doing nothing at all I do not see any difference in myself and no one is close enough to me to notice any changes in me.

I will try that meditation out, suppose I should just google it.

How old are you by the way?
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Give me a minute and I'll post you a link. There's a lot of new agey BS out there. Don't wont to scare you off it.
 
Ol' Mean Bastid said:
either you've had a bad experience with a kak psychologist or you're making a very broad generalised statement
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Bad experiences with bad psychologists and yes a very broad generalization.
But what exactly is talking to someone really going to do to make you feel better?

Going back to your past, who cares it is in the past. they always ask about crap from such a long time ago.
 
Aqua_lung said:
At 24 I was in a far worse state, no job or social life... but at 30 I am engaged to be married because I decided to just give romance a shot.... even though every day is incredibly difficult socially, making new friends is almost impossible for me now, I can't open up that easy.

Meeting new people, going to the shops, etc. leaves me tense and in a bad shape. My SO keeps me going though.
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I am happy for you that you have taken the leap and made a good change.
I am trying to find a partner, which is difficult when feeling this way.
But I hope to find someone one day.
Staying alone does not help either.
 
The reason I suggest talking to some one is maslows heirachy of needs (please Google it).
 
buyeye said:
The reason I suggest talking to some one is maslows heirachy of needs (please Google it).
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This:
maslow-hierarchy-of-needs-diagram.jpg
 
StonerStuart said:
Bad experiences with bad psychologists and yes a very broad generalization.
But what exactly is talking to someone really going to do to make you feel better?

Going back to your past, who cares it is in the past. they always ask about crap from such a long time ago.
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and there's a very good reason for that, but you've made up your mind already so no point in discussing further
 
StonerStuart said:
I am happy for you that you have taken the leap and made a good change.
I am trying to find a partner, which is difficult when feeling this way.
But I hope to find someone one day.
Staying alone does not help either.
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I met my partner online after chatting on skype and over the telephone, this gave me the confidence to meet in person, I expected the worst but bonding online and over the phone made it so much easier to just go for it, I met 3 women this way but just hit it off with my SO, and she is kinda hot too which helps. :D
 
A quick intro:

[video=youtube_share;FHO5telIRKo]http://youtu.be/FHO5telIRKo[/video]
 
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