Breaking up... with yourself

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This is probably one of the most difficult experiences to endure. And it is an experience that happens multiple times during our lives.
Sometimes, its simply growing apart from yourself, and not even noticing the breakup. But occasionally, some traits, thoughts and patterns requires breaking up with yourself the hard way.

One could argue for example, addiction is not breaking up with the substance, but actually its breaking up with the part of yourself that is addicted. Breaking up with yourself could even be an obsessive thought pattern, not being attentive to the people you love.

I find myself at such a cross road, desperately clinging to the old me. Its comfortable, its addictive, it has elements of satisfaction. But it also has a lot of anger and frustration when feeding that part of me becomes difficult. It feels worse than my divorce 10 years ago. I nap, i sulk, i bargain.

But the time has come. When feeling this hurt over the thought of leaving your old self, change is coming.
If you allow it.

I wish i could go into more depth, but some things are better left vague.
 

SueC

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All the best in your new adventure… hope you learn to love the new “you”. Be kind to yourself… it’s taken bravery to make this choice!
 
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pinball wizard

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This is probably one of the most difficult experiences to endure. And it is an experience that happens multiple times during our lives.
Sometimes, its simply growing apart from yourself, and not even noticing the breakup. But occasionally, some traits, thoughts and patterns requires breaking up with yourself the hard way.

One could argue for example, addiction is not breaking up with the substance, but actually its breaking up with the part of yourself that is addicted. Breaking up with yourself could even be an obsessive thought pattern, not being attentive to the people you love.

I find myself at such a cross road, desperately clinging to the old me. Its comfortable, its addictive, it has elements of satisfaction. But it also has a lot of anger and frustration when feeding that part of me becomes difficult. It feels worse than my divorce 10 years ago. I nap, i sulk, i bargain.

But the time has come. When feeling this hurt over the thought of leaving your old self, change is coming.
If you allow it.

I wish i could go into more depth, but some things are better left vague.
Get your hands on some magic mushrooms.
Or dmt.
 

pinball wizard

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N,N-Dimethyltryptamine (DMT or N,N-DMT) is a substituted tryptamine that occurs in many plants and animals and which is both a derivative and a structural analog of tryptamine.[3] It is used as a recreational psychedelic drug and prepared by various cultures for ritual purposes as an entheogen.[4]


A few institutions treating veterans and traumatic brain injuries are using it along with mdma with very positive results.
 

Fulcrum29

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I am a super introvert, totally loving it. It is other people who are having issues breaking up with me.
 
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