Breaking up... with yourself

[epah]

No man, Ogre needs to go check up on OP, this sounds serious.

 

[UrBaN963]

Jirre fok.

This forum is host to some strange creatures.

@crocopede - this you?

Woman marries herself, cheats on herself and then blames men

 

[Fulcrum29]

No man, Ogre needs to go check up on OP, this sounds serious.

It does, but then you need to consider a real support group.

 

[Arthur AnymoreDonuts]

No-fap November is coming…

Or not coming...

 

[RedViking]

All of the best!

 

[azbob]

Is this that thing people do on soshul meeja where they post something they think is deep and insightful to indicate they're hurting inside but when people ask about it they respond with "nothing, I'm fine" or "I don't want to talk about it"?

Now I see why they complained about Mark Zuckerburg hurting their children's feelings.

 

[Ghost64]

Oh no, now there’s two of you...

 

[Fcon_Vpro]

No-fap November is coming…

No-nut November

 

[Deleted member 369928]

Get your hands on some magic mushrooms.

Truth be told my sitter is coming on saterday. Though from past experience simply gaining insight from dmt or shrooms is not enough to cement lasting change.

Thus i started looking at me and realized i need to break up with me. Initiating such a breakup before a spiritual journey... I am hoping will ensure lasting benefits.

They key to transitioning is consistentcy. Only then do our automatic behavior become the positive actions we tend to fight so hard to achieve. Consistently performing the desired actions leads to reprogramming ourselves.

At some point, like some of us lose our temper, drink or whatever the negative automatic behavior is, it gets replaced with the positive behavior.

Psychedelics can have a very positive impact yes. But true introspection, and achieving real change requires a sober mind to identify those flaws and then one must be willing to give up you. For it is not not you. It is you. And it is you who must be willing to let yourself die, in order to be free of yourself to become yourself.

Or in simpler terms as i told a friend today who asked why im crying.

I am the way i am now, so that i can stop being the way i am.

 

[Ghost64]

So in a nutshell, you hate yourself and want to change...
What was so wrong with you before?

 

[Pineapple Smurf]

Heavy
Why don't you just carry on dating yourself and do the odd fling and cheat once a year? That's what I would do

 

[Pineapple Smurf]

 

[bwana]

Heavy
Why don't you just carry on dating yourself and do the odd fling and cheat once a year? That's what I would do

Even Bean had a G/F - Irma Gobb - so he's one up on you.

WTF is breaking up with one's self?

And what do you do if you, the other you, not you, decides you don't want to break up with you?

 

[Deleted member 369928]

So in a nutshell, you hate yourself and want to change...
What was so wrong with you before?

I had complex PTSD. It was alleviated significantly with shrooms. But an automatic behavior pattern was programmed to certain situations where i would react unfavorable.

My mind has become rigid, synonymous with depression. I also have an addiction which needs to be removed from my life.

I have an amazing wife and kid, and although they sit next to me, i miss them. For i am not present. I don't work towards a dream not future. I take life for granted.

I identified numerous short comings, habitual habits and bad programming that has to be removed to be the person i want to be.

We all tend to say, I want to be fit, i want to lose weight, i want a better job, i want to drink less or whatever it might be.

But there is a misconception it seems that it merely requires changing yourself. Hence most fail.

Its not changing one self. Its shedding yourself to become you. Hence, breaking up with yourself. Its letting you go, so you can meet you.

When that realization strikes... Its a very heartbreaking experience. It really feels like breaking up.

 

[Deleted member 369928]

Even Bean had a G/F - Irma Gobb - so he's one up on you.

WTF is breaking up with one's self?

And what do you do if you, the other you, not you, decides you don't want to break up with you?

There is only you, so you would have to make that decision. It would be a counter productive one, if you are breaking up with you, to become less you.

 

[Ghost64]

I had complex PTSD. It was alleviated significantly with shrooms. But an automatic behavior pattern was programmed to certain situations where i would react unfavorable.

My mind has become rigid, synonymous with depression. I also have an addiction which needs to be removed from my life.

I have an amazing wife and kid, and although they sit next to me, i miss them. For i am not present. I don't work towards a dream not future. I take life for granted.

I identified numerous short comings, habitual habits and bad programming that has to be removed to be the person i want to be.

We all tend to say, I want to be fit, i want to lose weight, i want a better job, i want to drink less or whatever it might be.

But there is a misconception it seems that it merely requires changing yourself. Hence most fail.

Its not changing one self. Its shedding yourself to become you. Hence, breaking up with yourself. Its letting you go, so you can meet you.

When that realization strikes... Its a very heartbreaking experience. It really feels like breaking up.

If you are not you then who are you? The old you or the new you?

 

[maumau]

I had complex PTSD. It was alleviated significantly with shrooms. But an automatic behavior pattern was programmed to certain situations where i would react unfavorable.

My mind has become rigid, synonymous with depression. I also have an addiction which needs to be removed from my life.

I have an amazing wife and kid, and although they sit next to me, i miss them. For i am not present. I don't work towards a dream not future. I take life for granted.

I identified numerous short comings, habitual habits and bad programming that has to be removed to be the person i want to be.

We all tend to say, I want to be fit, i want to lose weight, i want a better job, i want to drink less or whatever it might be.

But there is a misconception it seems that it merely requires changing yourself. Hence most fail.

Its not changing one self. Its shedding yourself to become you. Hence, breaking up with yourself. Its letting you go, so you can meet you.

When that realization strikes... Its a very heartbreaking experience. It really feels like breaking up.

What caused the PTSD - perhaps see a therapist to work through that?

 

[RiaX]

I'm confused. We all take life for granted until we face our mortality. You dying or something? coming out of the closet ? looking for attention ?

Im not mocking you BTW im being sincere.

EDIT:

Also dont use shrooms if you getting depression etc. (and yes I'm aware of the current research)

 

[Kodi]

No idea what this thread is about.

So I'll add this. Today I learned that my dog absolutely loves to be vacuumed.

 

[Deleted member 369928]

I'm confused. We all take life for granted until we face our mortality. You dying or something? coming out of the closet ? looking for attention ?

Im not mocking you BTW im being sincere.

EDIT:

Also dont use shrooms if you getting depression etc. (and yes I'm aware of the current research)

I am facing my own mortality. Actually that is exactly what sparked this entire journey. I am not dying except that i am.

I have not lived in many years. Solitude and isolation tends to remind us of this truth. We are dying. Time is finite. Covid times brought that home. Just the other day, it was the start of a lockdown.

We are consumed by the pursuit of safety, security, forgetting we are living. Writing up work as part of life, going through a repetitive cycle. Living at most once a week, on a saterday and the occasional holiday.

This is a pursuit towards the truth. That i am not me.

I share this openly to a: have a sound board. And B: maybe one day, someone with a similar journey discovers this, and one of my ramblings resonates with them, and assists them to achieve their ultimate truth.

For my journey has in the past been, excruciating. I fear to face myself.

I have not been honest with myself nor walked the desert. For a very very long time.