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So I've overdosed in 2016 and 2017 and was promised the moon and stars by my mind, but nothing has changed.

I'm literally in a dead end job where the second half portion of my May salary was only paid out yeesterday.

I can't afford the basics in life and spent all morning at home after refusing to go to work to see if I can get a loan somewhere. Subsequently denied everywhere I tried.

So I guess this is just me telling myself that the last 2 months showed that my life is a mess and there's nothing I can do about it.

I can't turn to family and have no friends in any case. It's just time to let my Bipolar mind kick in amd let go into the void.

Nice to have known you all.
I'm done with this.
 
Alright then, just remember its your choice, who you are, what you do and how you'll be known is in your hands, no one else has any much hand in your situation but you.
 
Dude, life is hard. A lot of people don’t even have a roof over their heads and still have the will power to fight.

Carry on through the hard times, don’t give up and things will get better.
 
We share the same condition. I can honestly say, if anything, the meds for the condition screws you up more than the condition itself (for some and most certainly for me)
Sometimes a mindset change is helped along by a lifestyle change as well.

Keep strong - It all works out in the end. One way ...or another.

Checking out though - should never be an option. Brave the storm.
 
Suicide is not the answer.
Rather go out by taking some other oxygen thief out... like people that fsck up the train line.
 
Thanks for all the replies. Even the negative ones.
I have some really bad ass depression today and it all came out at once. I need to let it out. I won't OD and I feel ashamed of my actions. I'm just tired of going through this every day non stop. It never ends.
 
|tera| said:
Thanks for all the replies. Even the negative ones.
I have some really bad ass depression today and it all came out at once. I need to let it out. I won't OD and I feel ashamed of my actions. I'm just tired of going through this every day non stop. It never ends.
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Go for a walk outside for a bit, leave your phone.
 
|tera| said:
Thanks for all the replies. Even the negative ones.
I have some really bad ass depression today and it all came out at once. I need to let it out. I won't OD and I feel ashamed of my actions. I'm just tired of going through this every day non stop. It never ends.
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Get out of your headspace. Do something to take your mind off it.
And booze isn't the answer either.

Makes the bipolar go on the fritz - well - it does with me every time.

I never learn though - booze is just so damn tasty :laugh:
 
MEIOT said:
We share the same condition. I can honestly say, if anything, the meds for the condition screws you up more than the condition itself (for some and most certainly for me)
Sometimes a mindset change is helped along by a lifestyle change as well.

Keep strong - It all works out in the end. One way ...or another.

Checking out though - should never be an option. Brave the storm.
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Once the psychiatrist gets the correct mix/cocktail of drugs, no one would ever know that you have mental issues.

The guy that I know, is now a manager at a major IT institution.
 
SYNERGY said:
Once the psychiatrist gets the correct mix/cocktail of drugs, no one would ever know that you have mental issues.

The guy that I know, is now a manager at a major IT institution.
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One could quite easily be just as functional, if not more, without the meds I believe.

And it's not an issue - just a condition :laugh:
 
|tera| said:
Thanks for all the replies. Even the negative ones.
I have some really bad ass depression today and it all came out at once. I need to let it out. I won't OD and I feel ashamed of my actions. I'm just tired of going through this every day non stop. It never ends.
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A nice long walk in the park...or drive to botanical gardens leave your phone and just stroll through for a few hours, appreciate what’s around tou.

Put it all into perspective. Living is a gift. Don’t throw it away.
 
|tera| said:
So I've overdosed in 2016 and 2017 and was promised the moon and stars by my mind, but nothing has changed.

I'm literally in a dead end job where the second half portion of my May salary was only paid out yeesterday.

I can't afford the basics in life and spent all morning at home after refusing to go to work to see if I can get a loan somewhere. Subsequently denied everywhere I tried.

So I guess this is just me telling myself that the last 2 months showed that my life is a mess and there's nothing I can do about it.

I can't turn to family and have no friends in any case. It's just time to let my Bipolar mind kick in amd let go into the void.

Nice to have known you all.
I'm done with this.
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I don't know what you do, but any chance you can just switch jobs? Even if it's one where the salary is a bit less, but it's a regular paycheck that you know will cover your costs. At least then the money worries will be over and you can concentrate on your mental health...
 
MEIOT said:
One could quite easily be just as functional, if not more, without the meds I believe.

And it's not an issue - just a condition :laugh:
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That depends on the specific case. The medical community seems to be quite convinced that certain chemical imbalances in the brain can cause depression. Let a qualified pshychiatrist make the call as to whether someone needs medication - to even vaguely suggest to somone on medication that they can drop the medication is irresponsible and dangerous.
 
I know you are going through a difficult time. The worst thing you can do is sit in front of the computer and
feel like you do.

Why don't you get yourself a dating app (or something similar) and start going out for coffee with people and doing something? If all else fails join a church for fellowship.

Remember that if you want something positive to happen, you need to be positive yourself.
 
Tacet said:
That depends on the specific case. The medical community seems to be quite convinced that certain chemical imbalances in the brain can cause depression. Let a qualified pshychiatrist make the call as to whether someone needs medication - to even vaguely suggest to somone on medication that they can drop the medication is irresponsible and dangerous.
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Calm your tits bud.

Nobody suggested OP ditches the meds. Though checking he's on the right meds would certainly go a long way too

"The medical community seems to be quite convinced that certain chemical imbalances in the brain can cause depression."

'Seems convinced' is somewhat a silly opinion you have there. It's very much a fact actually.
 
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