I started off with 2.5g last night.
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I had taken on the view that shrooms are sort of a sensory enhancer that would make me feel my body and its day-to-day functions. So I did feel my stomach digesting things and my intestines having a war with bacteria and other shitty stuff; I felt my bladder filling up and signaling that I should piss; I felt sweat being excreted etc. I labelled all this as normal bodily function that the shrooms were simply making me aware of in an intense way and that I didn't need to be unnecessarily distressed.
It was very uncomfortable to feel all this. It was like I had a front row seat to view/feel the many different battles going on inside my body that usually happen without my full awareness. I now understand why some people decide to jump out windows and stuff like that because the body feeling can get overwhelming but I eventually got over it. I was able to distract myself with music. Music really does sound/feel nice when high on this stuff.
I could be wrong but I don't think shrooms cause discomfort that was not already there before the shrooms, instead I think that it enhances awareness of preexisting discomfort that is usually "managed" under sober conditions. That's why the advice to have the correct setting and mood is important because that's what will get amplified. If you are sad and you take shrooms, it will probably make you feel the sadness to the fullest which perhaps might be what is needed to get over it.
I did see the visuals, but I had to focus my eyes intently on something specific and also the visuals would disappear as soon as I blink or shift my eye's focus. My expectation was that I would just see visuals randomly while roaming around the house - not so. For me it required focused attention and dedication.
But the visuals themselves were nice to see. It was mostly lifelike/breathing version of patterns already in the house. Eg, one of my curtains has some floral type pattern and when I stared at the curtain long enough the pattern would emerge out of the curtain and take over my peripheral vision to the point where I was no longer seeing the curtain itself but only the pattern in 3d. It felt like I was inside the pattern until I blinked which brought back my normal vision.
I also stared at my face in the mirror and I got to see a pattern emerge out of my face and fill my peripheral vision. It scared me a little at first. The pattern was similar to the spots on Jaguars and Leopards. Making different facial expressions while looking at myself in the mirror also scared me a little, but I laughed at myself for being freaked out by my own reflection.
I eventually lost interest in the visuals as my eyes were getting tired from not blinking that much. I then started introspecting while music was blasting in the background.
This part was interesting. It was like a therapy session with me and myself. I got to inspect issues I've been grappling with and think deeply about root causes. I also got to ponder on some philosophical questions.
Overall it was a nice experience. I will take 5g tomorrow and see if I lose my mind.
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