Been one of those fcking days, where my gears get grind to no end. Time to vent..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just said tomorrow is my birthday try your shyte and see how well it ends for you, it is my day you aren't going to fcking ruin my one day a year that is about me. Selfish I know, I haven't had me time in over 8 months, nearing the point where I rather be homeless than deal with this shyte anymore. Still have trauma and sleepless nights, from her incessant banging her night stand at 2 in the morning for weeks on end.
I am considering moving back to the outbuilding
They say these are the things you shouldn't do GOOD FCKING LUCK if you are able to mentally resist the constant onslaught every waking minute and don't reach a point where you just say fck it and fck you and everyone else.
Here are some Don'ts:
- Don't reason.
- Don't argue.
- Don't confront.
- Don't remind them they forget.
- Don't question recent memory.
- Don't take it personally.
Don't know how the fck even with training you aren't mentally fcked at the end of it.
lets give you a taste what I deal with on a daily basis and then tell me you would snap at some point, the video doesn't even show the half of it. The solutions at the end is so fcking staged it is ridiculously and hilarious, it rarely if ever goes that way, some days are good and smooth and then maybe for a week it is an absolute shyte storm, you come shyte stained and fck out the other end.
They also have a cycle that they go through, first couple of months, it was the banging on the nightstand and then throwing things, then the constant adjustment of her bed, now it is constant moving between the bed, wheelchair and couch. I could place her in the bed and almost immediately will ask to be back in the couch after having asked to be lifted back to bed because her legs are hurting.
I keep to a schedule of on the hour every hour moving her between places, use to be 4 or 5 times a day, every 2 hours or so. Would move her about for breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner.
The routine I worked out is that she gets to sit in the couch before bed and be in the couch at given times when it is time for eat something. She bemoans the routine, as she said it I am not in school anymore. Told her she will have a even more restrictive routine in care facility and they don't give a fck in those facility they have lots of people to manage and you won't get your way.
Told my brother I need to get a whiteboard now and markers and write out the routine mount it to the wall so she can see it, she it also need to get a calendar she rarely knows which day it is. I am hopeful writing it out and having it visible will make a difference.
It is only 6 more months before I can try and get her in a care facility current pension there is quite a short fall, will need to speak to the financial advisor of the pension how much of a drain 2 - 3 k extra will be and the projections