Depression.

Is there some test you can do to tell if you're depressed? I'm not about to go to a shrink. I go through periods where I hate my life and just want to run away despite all signs telling me that I should be grateful and happy with what I have in my life. Logically it doesn't make sense to me but I just stop giving a crap about everything. Everyone annoys the hell out of me.

Someone mentioned to me there is such a thing as seasonal depression and that got me wondering, because it's pretty much every Winter when I go through a phase of fukitall. This society norm bull**** of -make lots of money-buy a big house-work hard to achieve the most you can until you're old and grey- is just so mundane.

The best thing for that so far has been gymming 5 days a week through Winter and getting in good shape but now everything just seems like a waste of time. Maybe I should just take up smoking very strong weed during Winter.
 
Yes it's called seasonal affective disorder (SAD). Probably something that's more common than we think. Could also just be that everyone around you really is annoying and you don't have a life that would make you happy but if it's a phase that's more prevalent in winter then SAD probably has something to do with it as well.
 
Sensorei said:
Is there some test you can do to tell if you're depressed? I'm not about to go to a shrink. I go through periods where I hate my life and just want to run away despite all signs telling me that I should be grateful and happy with what I have in my life. Logically it doesn't make sense to me but I just stop giving a crap about everything. Everyone annoys the hell out of me.

Someone mentioned to me there is such a thing as seasonal depression and that got me wondering, because it's pretty much every Winter when I go through a phase of fukitall. This society norm bull**** of -make lots of money-buy a big house-work hard to achieve the most you can until you're old and grey- is just so mundane.

The best thing for that so far has been gymming 5 days a week through Winter and getting in good shape but now everything just seems like a waste of time. Maybe I should just take up smoking very strong weed during Winter.
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Winter sucks. I'm far from happy-go-lucky in the first place and during winter my energy levels and resilience towards any kind of bad news goes way down.
 
I was on Effexor for a year... man that completely killed my libido. Wellbutrin is much milder in that case.
 
I was depressed in my early 20s. I thought I needed a psychiatrist. Apparently what I needed was a ****klap and a 'wake up boet, you're a loser'. True story.

I do however understand that there are many people who have a chemical imbalance which requires treatment.
 
Pitbull said:
You have no sex drive?

Jirre Ockie, you of all people? :eek:
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It is not something I really wanted to advertise or talk about. Had my hormones checked in 2012 and they were all healthy. Doc gave me a prescription for something to help boost it and said if it does not work I must come back and then we should discuss the possibility of depression. It did not help and I never went back. He asked me yesterday why I did not come back and then said wait, let me guess...you just could not be bothered or did not care. I said yes.
 
Ockie said:
It is not something I really wanted to advertise or talk about. Had my hormones checked in 2012 and they were all healthy. Doc gave me a prescription for something to help boost it and said if it does not work I must come back and then we should discuss the possibility of depression. It did not help and I never went back. He asked me yesterday why I did not come back and then said wait, let me guess...you just could not be bothered or did not care. I said yes.
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Sorry didn't mean it in a bad way. I would never have guessed by your posts though :p
 
Ockie said:
Pretending have become easy. At least everything works as it should if I make the effort ... I just dont really have a interest in using it.
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No I hear you. Sex drive and getting going is two different things. This just means you can't be arsed to get laid and need to be enticed instead of enticing it. Damn, I think my wife has no Libido now that I read what I just typed. I ALWAYS need to initiate it... DAMN IT!
 
Pitbull said:
No I hear you. Sex drive and getting going is two different things. This just means you can't be arsed to get laid and need to be enticed instead of enticing it. Damn, I think my wife has no Libido now that I read what I just typed. I ALWAYS need to initiate it... DAMN IT!
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Well, the doc said he wants to see me again in 1 month to see how I am doing. If I react well to the Wellbutrin and the depression lifts then my sex drive should start to go back to normal. I am not all that bothered by the lack of drive actually. It is hard to explain...I am more bothered by the fact that I know it is not normal than the actual fact of not having it. What eventually did get me going to the doctor is the complete lack of emotional response when dating someone or meeting someone new. I mimic a response or emotion to what I think I should be feeling rather than actually feeling it. Jezuz .... that sounds really stupid ... but I dont know how to else explain it. The doc called it masked depression or some such.
 
As for your wife Pitbull....maybe ask her about it. Perhaps she just likes it when you initiate it. Perhaps she enjoys being the passive partner instead of the aggressive one.
 
Ockie said:
Well, the doc said he wants to see me again in 1 month to see how I am doing. If I react well to the Wellbutrin and the depression lifts then my sex drive should start to go back to normal. I am not all that bothered by the lack of drive actually. It is hard to explain...I am more bothered by the fact that I know it is not normal than the actual fact of not having it. What eventually did get me going to the doctor is the complete lack of emotional response when dating someone or meeting someone new. I mimic a response or emotion to what I think I should be feeling rather than actually feeling it. Jezuz .... that sounds really stupid ... but I dont know how to else explain it. The doc called it masked depression or some such.
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Nope it makes 100% sense.

Just trying to see how your returned sex drive will affect your posting in future :p :D

All the best Ockie, rooting for you !
 
Shaun108 said:
I was on Effexor for a year... man that completely killed my libido. Wellbutrin is much milder in that case.
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I have such fond memories of said medication, NOT!! Holy hell, and to think I endured it for nearly a year! All because some psychologist diagnosed me with depression, this after one consultation session. Oh the ignorance of my youth.
 
Ockie said:
Well, the doc said he wants to see me again in 1 month to see how I am doing. If I react well to the Wellbutrin and the depression lifts then my sex drive should start to go back to normal. I am not all that bothered by the lack of drive actually. It is hard to explain...I am more bothered by the fact that I know it is not normal than the actual fact of not having it. What eventually did get me going to the doctor is the complete lack of emotional response when dating someone or meeting someone new. I mimic a response or emotion to what I think I should be feeling rather than actually feeling it. Jezuz .... that sounds really stupid ... but I dont know how to else explain it. The doc called it masked depression or some such.
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If I may pry...how old are you ? Had a similar discussion with my best friend. Him noting, that I do not make an effort to get back into the dating game. It has been like 6 years since my last proper relationship. I am lonely nor a lonesome person. I just find at the age of 35, I know what I want, and what I do not want. Added to that, I find the gay community very limiting. I do not stereotype, but the older members of our "sisterhood", have way too much baggage...and the younger side, well, always looking for a mommy/daddy. You either knock me off my feet or make me so intrigue that I would pursue you. In the last 6 years, can truly say ... has not happened once...and the one time I did fake an interested gambit...I had a psycho on my hands. Word from the wise, discover more about yourself...and get to that place that you following understand, that joy comes from within , and not from the outside. I know ....very Oprah right, but so very true as well.
 
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