How to ''like'' yourself?

[latro]

What do you do when you don't like anything about yourself?

I can write a book larger than The Complete Miss Marple of things I despise about myself and what I've become over the last few years.

Cynical being at the top of the list.

I've tried religion. I've gone to a psychiatrist. What else is there to try?

Finding out that I have leukemia was the tipping point and I've no idea what else to do.

Am I getting manopause at 24?

And yes, I know it's sad that I'm writing this on a tech forum on a Saturday afternoon. But perhaps some strangers' opinion can shed some light on something that I can't figure out.

 

[Nicci]

I'm also received similar news recently, which was a big shock for me, and made me look at a lot of things in a different light. I on the other hand feel extremely anxious, scared, and I have become a nervous wreck. I am not coping well, but I simply cannot let this cancer get the better of me. I have to believe that there is hope, and yes, I live a pretend life atm, where I pretend nothing is wrong, and I try my hardest not to think of what if's. I throw myself in my work, I try to keep busy all the time, as not to have any free time to lie and think of things.

I am not sure about the don't like myself, I have not experienced that, but I have experienced maybe if I ate healthier, drank more water, did this or that it would have made a difference, but the fact is I would have had it regardless I have come to believe. I am very sorry to hear about your health Maybe the best advice I think will be to speak to friends / family and try to adopt a more positive outlook on things, how hard that may be. I wish you all the best!

 

[buyeye]

Let the antidepressants kick in 2 - 4 weeks I'm told.

 

[werfie]

Oh god, it must be something in the air then. +1

 

[TheHiveMind]

What do you do when you don't like anything about yourself?

Change?

 

[Jings]

I am very sorry that you ladies are going through so much right now.

After watching 'The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel' movie the other night, this quote kind of stuck in my head, "Everything will be all right in the end. So if it is not all right, then it is not yet the end."

 

[Pho3nix]

Have you gotten laid lately? <---Might be the cause

 

[ChilliGirl]

Have you gotten laid lately? <---Might be the cause

Are you trying to get lucky?

Stop eating cheese curls
Get out of your mother's basement and go meet people.

 

[latro]

I'm also received similar news recently, which was a big shock for me, and made me look at a lot of things in a different light. I on the other hand feel extremely anxious, scared, and I have become a nervous wreck. I am not coping well, but I simply cannot let this cancer get the better of me. I have to believe that there is hope, and yes, I live a pretend life atm, where I pretend nothing is wrong, and I try my hardest not to think of what if's. I throw myself in my work, I try to keep busy all the time, as not to have any free time to lie and think of things.

I am not sure about the don't like myself, I have not experienced that, but I have experienced maybe if I ate healthier, drank more water, did this or that it would have made a difference, but the fact is I would have had it regardless I have come to believe. I am very sorry to hear about your health Maybe the best advice I think will be to speak to friends / family and try to adopt a more positive outlook on things, how hard that may be. I wish you all the best!

You've hit the nail on the head with living a pretend life Nicci. Same thing is happening to me and I'm getting lost.

Sorry to hear about your situation. I actually didn't want to say anything about my condition as I don't want the subject turning around that really, just thought it might broaden peoples perspective.

Thank you for the advice. All the best for you as well!

 

[latro]

Let the antidepressants kick in 2 - 4 weeks I'm told.

I've been on it before and don't ever want to do it again. Besides the fact that it's ridiculously expensive, I never want to feel like that again. I'd rather sit with my issues as is than become that zombie again. Induced stupidity is not something I adore.

Change?

But how? Really think about it.

I am very sorry that you ladies are going through so much right now.

After watching 'The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel' movie the other night, this quote kind of stuck in my head, "Everything will be all right in the end. So if it is not all right, then it is not yet the end."

Have not watched it before, but thank you. Something to remember.

Have you gotten laid lately? <---Might be the cause

No problem in that department.

Stop eating cheese curls
Get out of your mother's basement and go meet people.

I'm not fat or even bothered about anything physical Chilligirl. It's the emotional things I'm despised at. I've become a prick. There you have it.

And I don't live with my parents, and have ample people around me for support. Not that they understand anything, but w/e .

 

[pampoenskyf]

How can you expect your friends to understand you and your situation anyway?

 

[latro]

How can you expect your friends to understand you and your situation anyway?

You can't. And I don't.

 

[ChilliGirl]

I've been on it before and don't ever want to do it again. Besides the fact that it's ridiculously expensive, I never want to feel like that again. I'd rather sit with my issues as is than become that zombie again. Induced stupidity is not something I adore.



But how? Really think about it.



Have not watched it before, but thank you. Something to remember.



No problem in that department.



I'm not fat or even bothered about anything physical Chilligirl. It's the emotional things I'm despised at. I've become a prick. There you have it.

And I don't live with my parents, and have ample people around me for support. Not that they understand anything, but w/e .

I think you misunderstood

My post was aimed at the poster I quoted...

 

[latro]

I think you misunderstood

That I did. Sorry

 

[ChilliGirl]

That I did. Sorry

No problem

I have been reading your thread out of interest and that comment that I replied to I did not like....

I personally am not ill. However I have an older brother who is...

He has been living in the UK for a few years. My folks and siblings are there too.

He has lymphatic(sp?) luekemia. He talks to me, but won't talk about how he is doing...

From my mom I have found out:
It is spread through his entire lymph system
And has spread to his bonemarrow as well.
He currently has glandular fever symptoms(side effect)
They cannot start treatment until that clears

I do not know which way he will go...

 

[ChilliGirl]

So talk to your family. They cannot change what is happening, but maybe they can cheer you up.

Or they can help you appreciate life and support your will to fight the "invaders".

Wrathex has an interesting thread about her struggles with cancer. Maybe search for it. I am posting from my mobile so cannot link it.

Being family of someone experiencing.....is a shyte experience when they lock you out.

 

[Celine]

Are you trying to get lucky?

Stop eating cheese curls
Get out of your mother's basement and go meet people.

i almost sprayed coffee all over my monitor LOLOLOLOLOL.

 

[Celine]

have you watched that program on channel 125 called "the incurables". it's about people who get diagnosed with incurable diseases, a lot get diagnosed with cancer. they then start a complete different diet and their disease seems to go into remission. for some reason diet seems to help with these cancers.

 

[Nanfeishen]

Finding out that I have leukemia was the tipping point and I've no idea what else to do.
Am I getting manopause at 24?

Menopause - no, but you are facing something that not many 24 year olds should have to face, - the knowledge, or awereness of your own mortality.

Coming to terms with that is not easy, and requires a shift of consciousness that takes work and effort.

And I don't live with my parents, and have ample people around me for support. Not that they understand anything, but w/e .

They dont and cannot understand what you are experiencing, with one discovery you have outgrown them, mentally and emotionally.
This awareness or growth is not a weakness, its a strength.
It is a powerfull tool that can give you focus, clarity and purpose in life.
It allows you to focus on whats important to you in life, skim over the trivialities and the mundane, and do what you want to do in life , not what others expect you to do.
Turn it around , stop dwelling on the negative, and start to see it as something positive and strong in your life.

Robert Frost : The Road Not Taken
http://www.bartleby.com/119/1.html

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

 

[ChilliGirl]

i almost sprayed coffee all over my monitor LOLOLOLOLOL.

Then you understood the post