Please help me with my addiction

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Hi, my name is Kaylee and I am 22 years old. i have just finished university and am currently working for a large financial institution in JHB.

Recently because of job pressure I have resorted to all kinds of prescription medications like lorazepam, morphine and haloperidol to help me cope with the stress. When that ran out I started buying from a dealer. I realised now that this is affecting my health pretty badly after doing it for a year. My boyfriend has also left me because of my addiction once I told him about it.

What is the easiest way to stop? I have been to a doctor and he told me to just quit because it's more of a psychological thing thats in my mind.

Please advise since some of you guys are knowledgeable here.
 
Where's that Russell Brand thread.

You'll basically have to join a support group. Few people can do it alone. Get a new boyfriend. You're a women ... women can find boyfriends at the drop of a hat. It doesn't really work so easily the other way around. At least not for me.

Tell us about the stress you experience at work.
 
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Replace the addition with something else. If you have the time, get into the gym and work the stress out that way.

Also, I think my computer is broken, I can't see the pics. :(
 
Man, those are some hard drugs you doing right there. Stopping is not gonna be easy, I think you have to slowly taper off under an in-patient detox clinic. If you been doing those for a year, then you are in for some challenging times until detox is over. Lorazepam is the strongest benzodiazepine that I know of, and you are also injecting morphine??? You're lucky to still be alive today little lady, please get real professional help as soon as possible. that doctor you went and saw needs to have his license revoked if he told you that crap.
 
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Hi, my name is Kaylee and I am 22 years old. i have just finished university and am currently working for a large financial institution in JHB.

Recently because of job pressure I have resorted to all kinds of prescription medications like lorazepam, morphine and haloperidol to help me cope with the stress. When that ran out I started buying from a dealer. I realised now that this is affecting my health pretty badly after doing it for a year. My boyfriend has also left me because of my addiction once I told him about it.

What is the easiest way to stop? I have been to a doctor and he told me to just quit because it's more of a psychological thing thats in my mind.

Please advise since some of you guys are knowledgeable here.
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Good grief! That's a spot of honesty.

The first thing to do is realise that stress is a killer and that you are actually in control of how much you are going to let it affect you.

I understand that there are things such as deadlines, but I also understand that most of them are artificial. Miss one and the sun will still rise tomorrow. But I'm not suggesting that you should become a slacker. You need to realise that you can only deliver to the best of your ability, not more. Finding the limit of your ability is tricky but the first step would be learning to say no.

I cannot comment on addiction, well I can but I don't have the experience. Your doctor is probably right but I doubt it is as simple as just stopping. The addiction is a symptom, you need to fix the cause of that addiction.

Anyway, you'll get some advice here - some good, some meh. You'll get a lot of flack too but you've already opened up.

Good luck.
 
Rehab?

From what i am reading about the medication you taking (i dont know about this stuff), it doesn't look like you will be able to manage without proper help.
 
To be honest, I can't really take so much time off from work to go to rehab... how long will that take?
 
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Get a new boyfriend. You're a women ... women can find boyfriends at the drop of a hat. It doesn't really work so easily the other way around. At least not for me.
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How on earth did you manage to make this about you?


On topic... your doctor's advice is extremely unhelpful. You're basically a kid, and you aren't prepared to cope with the kind of pressure that you're being placed under. I'd back off a bit on the workload. There's plenty of time in life to work hard; and as you get older it becomes easier to handle. Talk to your managers and explain that you're not coping too well personally and see what you can do about scaling back.
 
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To be honest, I can't really take so much time off from work to go to rehab... how long will that take?
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I do believe your company has a legal obligation to assist you and possibly even pay for your rehab.

Considering the company is the reason you find yourself in this predicament maybe that's exactly where the problem lies? Getting away from it might be exactly what you need.
 
Well, wikipedia says that haloperidol is a nasty drug that is used to calm down people who are psychotic and lorazepam is so strong that it causes you permanent memory loss and basically makes you into a walking zombie while under it's effects. I can't understand why you even tried these things even if you were under extreme stress, I really do feel so sorry for you.

Please please go to a psychologist right now and book 2 weeks leave off work stating urgent medical reasons, I'm sure management will understand. Did you lose a lot of weight after taking those drugs? How much did you take daily?
 
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I do believe your company has a legal obligation to assist you and possibly even pay for your rehab.

Considering the company is the reason you find yourself in this predicament maybe that's exactly where the problem lies? Getting away from it might be exactly what you need.
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I don't know about the company's legal obligation here, I do know that your big companies generally do assist their employees with these. There is no shame about your condition and they cant fire you, especially if noted that job related they tend to take a supportive role. Alternatively if you have med aid (assume compulsary?) then detox rehab is covered, just find out how. Im no doc, but I think you need a different one.
 
FemAnon said:
What is the easiest way to stop? I have been to a doctor and he told me to just quit because it's more of a psychological thing thats in my mind.

Please advise since some of you guys are knowledgeable here.
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There is only one way that is too genuinely want to stop and to be prepared to face and conquer the withdrawals. After that you'll have to address you' job pressure' issue so you don't relapse. 'easiest' shouldn't even come into the equation. You're going to stop and that's it.

Firstly change your doc you need proper medical advice and support for coming off the drugs. There are serious side effects that you'll need to cope with.

I came off months of high doses of Lorazepam and other drugs from when I was ill. I tapered off the stuff. I set certain parameters for when it was acceptable to take one but beyond that it wasn't an option. I then gradually restricted the parameters.

Bottom line is you generally have to want to be off the stuff come hell or high water. I can't stress this enough even if it means only going back to the stressful state you were in before. At least for a while until you sort that out.
 
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Thank you for all the replies, I was on 5mg Haloperidol, 4mg Lorazepam and i used to inject myself in my thigh daily with morphine in order to get some sleep at night. I'm feeling awful right now since I did not take any of those from last night. I've spoken to my manager and he's agreed to let me go to the doctor tomorrow.
 
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