My anger will go with me.
My psychosis will likely continue for a little while. While I sort this within me.
A person doesn't change dependent on where they live or even due to people being around them.
So I don't want to have another psych exercise in my mind with someone trying to shape and form me.
FFS. Only God has that control.
I hate to the deepest part of my core people that manipulate and control other people.
I have been bitch slapped and I turned my cheeck.
I am now taking a beating.
Kudos to you for taking the first steps to taking care of yourself! I’ve seen many stay in toxic environments due to comfort and fear of the unknown.
I think quite a few of us have been going through emotional rollercoasters since lockdown. I personally have been experiencing a subtle but constant sense of anxiety because of the lockdowns coupled with many existential questions :/
Kinda feel like I’ve been a hamster on a wheel just running and pushing forward for the sake of pushing forward as I can’t explain why I was previously going after certain goals in my life.
Either way, I’m now treating this whole lockdown period as a pit stop for myself. It’s a time to reset, to try and discover what I really want to do with myself once it’s all done and start prepping myself for that.
The growing pains in life never end but I think we’re on the right path if we’re at least able to choose how to handle the pains.
...and whatever your ups and downs in life, own and stay proud of the story that is your life. After all, you only have one chance to write it.
I wish you all the best on your journey of healing.