Just sitting chilled out after a slow one.
So I don't want to start a new thread for this.
I'm basically just typing and letting it out. Respond at will, or not.
So I'm sick. Like really sick.
I don't have something as bad as Covid physically, but I suffer from Bipolar disorder.
Reason I mention it. I'm angry.
I'm really really really angry.
I am pissed off beyond belief.
In a span of 1 day a few days ago my entire life is changing course again.
Resigned from employer, gave notice for rent.
I am NOT pissed that I have to move.
I am pissed because I have no other choice than to do it.
It wasn't a second thought for me.
It wasn't even an egotistical feeling or expression.
I just knew. Yes. Go. Fk this place.
So. End of the month I'm moving to a place I basically grew up in.
Not the most ideal, but I'm thankful either way.
My anger will go with me.
My psychosis will likely continue for a little while. While I sort this within me.
A person doesn't change dependent on where they live or even due to people being around them.
So I don't want to have another psych exercise in my mind with someone trying to shape and form me.
FFS. Only God has that control.
I hate to the deepest part of my core people that manipulate and control other people.
I have been bitch slapped and I turned my cheeck.
I am now taking a beating.
I'm worse than Alice in Wonderland if I stand up from that beating.
Trallalaala don't give a fk anymore.