Therapy dose
Background:
The reason for doing this was to address my treatment-resistant depression.
I have had depression for about 15 years but it became progressively worse in the past 3yrs. In the past, I have had ayahuasca treatment which did help some. I also did ketamine treatment recently but the effects were short-term.
Recently, I micro-dosed LSD for a month which had no effect, and then went to a "clinic" to have ibogaine treatment. I detoxed my meds before the treatment, as recommended, and as of now am still off prescription drugs. I was on prescription meds, anti-depressants, mood stabilizer, and anti-psychotic.
The ibogaine was administered at 19mg/kg HCL (standard dose). I would describe this experience as mild but did experience a small amount of 'open-eye visuals'.
After this did not work I tried mushrooms.
So yesterday I ground up 7 grams of 'alacabezi' added 15ml lemon juice and let sit for about 30 mins then added cold water and steeped for 30mins. I filtered it and drank the 'tea'. A therapeutic dose is approximately 5 grams but I seem to have a high tolerance so I upped the dose to 7 grams. I drank the tea at about 20h00 and the trip ended at about 01h00 so about 5 hrs.
I used an eye mask and listened to meditation music. There were very few visuals and mainly just a very heavy body load/physical experience. I felt like I was being turned inside out and twisted. Very unpleasant.
Question to experienced trippers:
I was expecting a far more profound experience. Did I make a mistake with the preparation because I expected a much stronger response?
I will try this again in a few days but this time I'll use hot water steep for 1hr then add lemon juice, and consume 20mins later. (add ginger)
I am using the tea method to avoid nausea as I have a 'weak' stomach.
I would prefer to do this therapy with a professional but can't find one in KZN.
Does anyone know of a person who facilitates mushroom therapy in KZN?
FYI
BBC documentary on psilocybin therapy - youtube.com/watch?v=UGN2l-XY_EE&t=2202s
micro-dosing, youtube.com/watch?v=6AfFM8pfy4s