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BipolarDude.ADHD said:
Thats the allure of drugs in general...Initially you use them to escape reality and the mundane existance of the life you lead (normal people go to the movies to escape for a while..), then you escape often enough that you can no longer function in the real world without them...drugs destroy lives and tear families apart...
I was clinically dead for about a minute and a half due to a heroin overdose but was ressusitated and am lucky to be alive...Even after nearly dying i continued to use heroin for a furth 3 years.....

The drug is THAT powerful....Stay away...coming clean took me 3 weeks of physical suffering....
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Yes, I can understand how an escape of that calibre can quickly take over your life... The effects sound incredible but that is no way to live... It isn't life when you're in your own dream world half the time and you're scrounging around selling your soul for your next fix :(

I am so so glad they managed to bring you back. Sad though how that wasn't enough to make you think twice before doing it again, shows just how deep you were!

So what happened??? What was it that finally made you stop?

Congratulations for fighting it btw! 7 Years is incredible! Now let's make it 10, 15, 20! :D Keep going and stay strong

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Lush said:
So what happened??? What was it that finally made you stop?

Congratulations for fighting it btw! 7 Years is incredible! Now let's make it 10, 15, 20! :D Keep going and stay strong

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Thanks!
Guilt happened....My wife became addicted because of me and I was watching her fade away right in front of me...She had lost all her friends and her family dis-owned her...I felt responsible and knew that the only way she would get clean is if I came clean...So I borrowed money from my mother..Just enough to get us from Cape Town to Queenstown and no further...Packed her up and spent 6 weeks in a family friends house in the middle of winter in queenstown...No money...No connections in tiny queenstown...No nothing...Just loads of vomitting, dihorea, seizures and pain...After 3 weeks we were clean...Spent the next three weeks mending relationships and left for little old East London...She was pregnant...If it weren't for the pregnancy and the birth of my first daughter I might have relapsed..Having children changed me and I could no longer be self destructive..The innocent little girl depended on me...The rest is history.
 
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I smoked weed once in my life. Was a newbie and had already had a few drinks before it and got the greens. Imagine the greens on your first time ever. Was enough to put me off for life else I'd probably have kept going back.
 
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JHatman said:
I smoked weed once in my life. Was a newbie and had already had a few drinks before it and got the greens. Imagine the greens on your first time ever. Was enough to put me off for life else I'd probably have kept going back.
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Hehehehe...Lucky you.:)
 
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BipolarDude.ADHD said:
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Guilt happened....My wife became addicted because of me and I was watching her fade away right in front of me...She had lost all her friends and her family dis-owned her...I felt responsible and knew that the only way she would get clean is if I came clean...So I borrowed money from my mother..Just enough to get us from Cape Town to Queenstown and no further...Packed her up and spent 6 weeks in a family friends house in the middle of winter in queenstown...No money...No connections in tiny queenstown...No nothing...Just loads of vomitting, dihorea, seizures and pain...After 3 weeks we were clean...Spent the next three weeks mending relationships and left for little old East London...She was pregnant...If it weren't for the pregnancy and the birth of my first daughter I might have relapsed..Having children changed me and I could no longer be self destructive..The innocent little girl depended on me...The rest is history.
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Wow... I have so much respect for you for having the strength to up and go and fight it together... You probably saved both your lives by doing that! It must've been the hardest thing you've ever had to do... Wow...

And I'm glad you were both clean in time for your daughter's arrival. Just stay clean for her- she needs a strong dad. Love her lots and keep her safe

Am so glad you're being so open about this. It must help a lot to talk about it- definitely therapeutic. I hope lots of people read this and stay the hell away from Heroin.

Congrats again :D
 
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Wow... I have so much respect for you for having the strength to up and go and fight it together... You probably saved both your lives by doing that! It must've been the hardest thing you've ever had to do... Wow...

And I'm glad you were both clean in time for your daughter's arrival. Just stay clean for her- she needs a strong dad. Love her lots and keep her safe

Am so glad you're being so open about this. It must help a lot to talk about it- definitely therapeutic. I hope lots of people read this and stay the hell away from Heroin.

Congrats again :D
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Very therapeutice Yes...The only thing is that once I was clean I realised that i didn't actually love my wife..My sense of obligation to her and my guillt had faded..I had made right what I made wrong and I woke up one day and realised that I didn't actually love her....Being clean had it's drawbacks.
 
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BipolarDude.ADHD said:
Very therapeutice Yes...The only thing is that once I was clean I realised that i didn't actually love my wife..My sense of obligation to her and my guillt had faded..I had made right what I made wrong and I woke up one day and realised that I didn't actually love her....Being clean had it's drawbacks.
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So not quite the happy ending you were going for... It must've been weird to suddenly wake up and be able to clearly assess the relationship. At least you were true to yourself and to the situation! So many people live a lie and fake happiness in a relationship cause they are too comfortable
 
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Lush said:
So not quite the happy ending you were going for... It must've been weird to suddenly wake up and be able to clearly assess the relationship. At least you were true to yourself and to the situation! So many people live a lie and fake happiness in a relationship cause they are too comfortable
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Heroin makes any situation comfortable..:)
 
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The thing about being Bipolar is that I take drugs everyday just to function normally....Much the same as when I was a Heroin addict...The universe has a strange sense of humor...
 
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Do you think that drug addicts think they're better than non users ... ?

I've always got the impression that, 'I do X, Y and Z ... I'm cool and better than you are ...'

Just curious.
 
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Dolby said:
Do you think that drug addicts think they're better than non users ... ?

I've always got the impression that, 'I do X, Y and Z ... I'm cool and better than you are ...'

Just curious.
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From my experience gained from knowing and associating with druggies is that they are self-loathing, unhappy, sad little people who in an attempt to disguise this fact put on an act and pretend its cool when they know its not...Addicts in general are very selfish individuals and their life revolves around instant gratification...

The "social" users...The pill poppers at clubs and the coke-heads genuinely feel cool so they think they're cool...Again..Instant gratification...Misery loves company and if you aint doin it with them then you are of as much impotance to them as the bean bag they collapse into...

Coke makes people over confidant, arrogant and agressive..when they're high on coke they think they're godlike and everyone else is beneath them...It is a false confidence and an irrational thought process caused by the coke that makes them act this way.

The truth is that people who use drugs most likely have underlying emotional issues and a low self esteem...They use to feel better..When they feel better then perhaps some of them think they're better than others...They are not...They are sad.
 
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@BipolarDude.ADHD.
Congrats on your recovery, I think this the most sensible thread in a long time.
Keep up the good work.Good luck.
 
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