Maybe it helps to re-frame it like this: At R32k pm you are at the cusp of the worlds top 1% wealth bracket ($34k per annum). Throw in a 13th check and you are right there. Yes, that makes you a one percenter in global terms. Think about that very carefully. Out of 7 000 000 000+ people, you are one of the 70 million wealthiest individuals on the planet.
So instead of building an outlook on life based on relative insufficiency, focus on the abundance that you have and find ways to highlight that prosperity to yourself. Feeling like a failure can become a self fulfilling prophecy so rather think about all the opportunities and things that you can do and have that are not available to the majority that surround you - the car guards, cleaners, factory workers, pensioners, miners, subsistence farmers and the unemployed, all of whom make up the other 99%.
You might not have the income to buy a Porsche, but you have a car that you can drive wherever you want, you may not be able to afford fine restaurants every night of the week but you can have take out once a week and that rare meal at a good restaurant, you may not be a billionaire, but you have a roof over your head and I bet your kitchen always has some food and you have electricity and clean water on demand. To 90% of the worlds population there is not much distinction between you and Bill Gates. You have wealth beyond their wildest dreams.
